Venting I wish my friends were on this website already, it sounds odd but i have a reason

[idkwhatimdoinghere]

My friends I already have understand me more than anybody else does but I don't have a place where it feels natural or normal to talk to them about things like suicide or whatever and I feel like it'd be so easy and guilty free to talk to them here since that's exactly what this place is meant for but I don't feel any of them would want an account here and my best friend already told me to never visit this site again after explaining what it was to him but I just feel like it'd be so much easier and cathartic and relieving to talk to them here