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rotten_hrtz

rotten_hrtz

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Nov 25, 2025
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All my life I've struggled to change my body, from diets to starving myself, but it never works. I'm not obese, but I'm not slim either. I'm in a limbo where I'm too fat to be considered pretty and not fat enough to be considered obese (I don't know if that makes sense).

But it's all my dad's fault. My dad always made fun of my body and called me a cow or obese. It affected how I see myself. I don't know if I'm pretty or ugly, but I don't want to live feeling like this anymore.

Many people around me often say I'm pretty, but I don't believe it. They only say it so I don't think about it. I've thought that all my confidence problems will end when I finally end my life. Maybe then I won't feel so ugly and I can just rest.
 
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Alumina

Alumina

The king is dead long live the king
May 29, 2026
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do you really think you are ugly and if you do, why?
 
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Apr 27, 2026
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do you really think you are ugly and if you do, why?
Possibly because the father kept telling this person this
But it's all my dad's fault. My dad always made fun of my body and called me a cow or obese.
It's honestly so painful when you know WHY your hurt but still can't overcome it, I myself falls on underweight BMI and no matter what I do I can't get 50 Kg
 
Alumina

Alumina

The king is dead long live the king
May 29, 2026
30
Possibly because the father kept telling this person this
what i mean is like does SHE think it and if so is it because SHE really thinks she's fat or is she gaslighted by the father? i mean a lot of people (myself included before) are just shamed but beside are not that fat
ngl after all ik it's a dumb question, most aren't objective about it bc of the bullying
 
fadedghost

fadedghost

Found SaSu after reading BBC & watching YouTube
Dec 10, 2025
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All my life I've struggled to change my body, from diets to starving myself, but it never works. I'm not obese, but I'm not slim either. I'm in a limbo where I'm too fat to be considered pretty and not fat enough to be considered obese (I don't know if that makes sense).

But it's all my dad's fault. My dad always made fun of my body and called me a cow or obese. It affected how I see myself. I don't know if I'm pretty or ugly, but I don't want to live feeling like this anymore.

Many people around me often say I'm pretty, but I don't believe it. They only say it so I don't think about it. I've thought that all my confidence problems will end when I finally end my life. Maybe then I won't feel so ugly and I can just rest.
It sounds like you are probably normal weight and perceive yourself incorrectly. If you aren't a normal weight, GLP-1s like Ozempic work really well and the prices are coming down dramatically.
 
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what i mean is like does SHE think it and if so is it because SHE really thinks she's fat or is she gaslighted by the father? i mean a lot of people (myself included before) are just shamed but beside are not that fat
ngl after all ik it's a dumb question, most aren't objective about it bc of the bullying
It should be related, her father kept telling her that and because of that she starts to think for herself that she is indeed that. We better wait for her response
 

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