I wish I could never wake up

[bl33ding_heart]

I seriously wish I could drift off to sleep peacefully and never wake up. Everything hurts so much I just wanna die already but I'm unfortunate enough to lack methods that are bearable and accessible. The pain is so unbearable I genuinely consider walking to the nearest train station which is pretty far away and jumping in front of a train. Although I have the courtesy to not traumatise innocent people. If I was never born to begin with I would have never had to suffer this much. I honestly resent my parents for even creating me. Especially since they only created me to abuse the shit out of me and leave me with an unbearable mental disorder that both makes me wanna die and makes me go through unfathomable pain. It's so unfair that my brain is in the literal sense just a byproduct of abuse and mistreatment and I'm the one who is left to bear it.

 

[Nolongerlive]

I hope you will find Peace in this damn world !

 

[themisfit]

Dear, I'm so sorry to hear that you are in such pain

I hope things get better for you, no matter what path you decide to take

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as all I want is to never wake as well, I just want permanent peace from this torturous existence of dreadful suffering and there's just so much terrible cruelty in how painless ways to cease existing are made inaccessible, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, I hope you find the peace you search for.

 

[cursedlife]

I relate to this , if it wasn't for my SI and fear of ending up as a vegetable I would put my neck on the railways and get over with it ,I hope we both find peace soon

 

[Matchaaa]

I'm so sorry you're going through this, I hope you can find peace and comfort soon and things get better for you