Venting I am genuinely a failure at life and I can't stop being an ungrateful piece of shit

[yuri77]

I am a disgrace to my family because I am trans. If I was normal they would support me and love me, if anyone else had my family they would know how to be grateful and happy. I am so sick of living while pretending to be someone else, I wish there was a way to give someone my body and let them live however they want because I don't want to traumatize my family but I don't want to live like this either. I wish I never existed or was born in a different way. All that love my family gave me is for nothing, all of their efforts are going into trash. Why? Because their child couldn't be happy with what he got. I want the pain to stop without making anyone suffer because of me and I'd do anything for that to happen, I don't care how I die.

 

[TransientEternal]

How are you ungrateful for not wanting something you didn't ask for in the first place?

 

[volo]

Well… don't know what country you're from, but, anywhere in the world, there is a certain % of the population that are gay or trans. Some countries accept them more than others. Some families accept them more than others. It's cultural. I think these minorities will be accepted more and more in the future. I'm sorry it's so hard for you and I hope it gets better. Do you live with your parents? If you do, maybe with a little more time, when you start living on your own, this would get easier for you? In any case, I truly hope that your pain and suffering lets up at least a bit for you.

 

[The Disqualified]

I am a disgrace to my family because I am trans.

You are not.
Your family should treat you better, like an actual person. I am sorry you have to deal with them.
I know well how destructive families can be.