I will never love myself

[danzk2005]

I'll never be able to like who I am. That will never change. I hate everything about me—my face, my body, the way I talk, the way I walk. I'm completely insecure about who I am. I don't feel special; I feel like no one truly cares about me. I've been in the same situation for years, trying to change, but I can't. I wish I had the courage to end it all, but I'm a coward. So, I'm going to have to live with these feelings of worthlessness and self-hatred until I have the courage to end it all. I completely hate myself.

 

[zappynomore]

same hate myself. and its impossible to ever change that feeling.

 

[ForeverLonely82]

relate. I hate myself to hell and back. Tried many a suggestion, it's pointless. You have luck or fucked.

 

[mysticatedwine]

I'll never be able to like who I am. That will never change. I hate everything about me—my face, my body, the way I talk, the way I walk. I'm completely insecure about who I am. I don't feel special; I feel like no one truly cares about me. I've been in the same situation for years, trying to change, but I can't. I wish I had the courage to end it all, but I'm a coward. So, I'm going to have to live with these feelings of worthlessness and self-hatred until I have the courage to end it all. I completely hate myself.

I'm completely with you on this one...

I hate the way I think and the way I talk. The way I look and the way I get looked at. It all feels so wrong.

 

[nails]

i'm in a similar situation as you, it's so hard. mentally/emotionally, it's just so draining and impossible to live in a physical form that you hate; almost as if you're constantly cornered. for what it's worth, i don't think you're a coward just because you haven't killed yourself.
i'm sorry you have to go through this. i hope you find some peace or relief. feel free to message me if you need to vent or anything.

 

[whyDoesItHurtSoMuch]

This resonates with me. I hate myself and I always will. I'm so sorry you are going through this -- it hurts so much.

 

[Crematoryy]

I'll never be able to like who I am. That will never change. I hate everything about me—my face, my body, the way I talk, the way I walk. I'm completely insecure about who I am. I don't feel special; I feel like no one truly cares about me. I've been in the same situation for years, trying to change, but I can't. I wish I had the courage to end it all, but I'm a coward. So, I'm going to have to live with these feelings of worthlessness and self-hatred until I have the courage to end it all. I completely hate myself.

Would you be able to love yourself if someone else loved you? I believe that this self-acceptance gap can be filled by another who has the same voids.

 

[DoomCry]

Like you, I never felt special. I don't like my body and many other things about me. I understand you.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

same. They used to say it's just a phase. I've been like this for 60 years and it's a little worse with each passing year. I'm thankful to be running out of years.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I've never loved myself. Idk, maybe when I was a kid, but not really, bc I really didn't know of that concept then. Definitely not one year of my adulthood, though, and that's like 40 years.

 

[wham311]

same. They used to say it's just a phase. I've been like this for 60 years and it's a little worse with each passing year. I'm thankful to be running out of years.

Jealous

 

[underduvet]

I hate me so much. I wish I could change some features but I cannot. It's especially hard walking around in public alone, cuz now all you think about is your bad features and in your head, everyone notices them, which makes you feel worse and you overthink. Like when I walk, I think about trying to walk properly else I think everyone will notice, but then it makes it so much harder to walk and I get a bit wobbly and then I feel more like shit.

Also feel like society has these ingrained standards that kills us inside when we can't meet them even if they aren't totally realistic.

 

[Soontocatch]

Yep it sometimes feels as though it would have been better if I was never born.I feel like that would have been much more peaceful

 

[stayedtoolong]

It's like I wrote this myself. The realisation sucks.