Do you have plans for your last evening? You sound committed to your decision, yet a bit unsure. It's normal to be scared, but I think it's important to find peace within before. For me, and in my mind, the timing should be right, planning and prep 100% done, and I should have no doubts. What helps me to get clarity, is to write about whatever I feel. Please know that you are not alone, and we are here to listen to whatever you may want to share. I wish you all the best, and hope you find peace, whichever way your journey leads.
You said what I was going to think, which even I didn't know. You're absolutely right, I was committed but the tiny uncertainty overpowered and didn't let me do it. And no, I didn't have any plans as I didn't want any extra pressure.
Thank you for your thoughtful words
I may also CTB tomorrow evening (via jumping from an 8 story parking lot)
I hope we both can succeed + I hope this fear goes away because I am also scared to die regardless of how much I want to.
I hope you're ok bud, I couldn't do it, any updates from your side?
It's so hard to read this. I wish you all the best, my dear. I understand that life can be unbearable and we have to take such a difficult final step
Thank you for your kind words, I didn't do it
It's still better than living a life full of dread and tiredness both mentally and physically. But damn is it difficult to CTB or even try. I hope you are sure that you want to do what you want to do and I hope you can pull it off and find your peace.
But there's nothing shameful if you change your mind last minute too. All the best whatever the outcome.
Wish I can give you a big hug.
it is 100%, I guess I just didn't have the guts to do it. And thank you for your kind words, it really means a lot.
I wish I can too
I understand your fear. I have my own. If I can say or offer anything it's that I think you're brave. I don't think normies understand just how much it takes to overcome the fear and take action against the bullshit. No matter what, you are brave.
I didn't do it, so it turned out I wasn't, thank you for your kind words regardless
I wish you peace
I'm so scared to end it too.
I Wish you peace too
I didn't do it because I was also scared so we're still in the same boat I guess
I wish you a departure as painless as possible. Rest well.
I didn't do it but thank you for your kind wishes
I'm so sorry that it all led to this point but i can definitely understand it.
I hope that I can ctb soon. I have a few questions to you if I may ask :)
How confident are you at the moment that this will be it that you'll be able to do the suicide attempt from 1-10?
Since when did you plan to ctb and did you visit many times the place from which you wanna jump?
Do you know this strange and total irrational feeling that no matter how painful life is and no matter how damn legitimate a suicide would be that you still whenever you think about your suicide or plan the suicide get extremely nervous, anxious, sad and somehow angry that this shit world left no other option than suicide?
I hope everything is well with you
The day before I'd say a solid 8, but it definitely dropped gradually to like 2 when I went over to the site, went up the 12 flights of stairs and looked down even though I've been there before
Since I started being held back in college, I passed the first 3 years with no hiccups, but I failed last year and again this year. It's not my reason for doing it but it was definitely the straw. Yes I've been to the site twice. 2 years ago and 10 days ago.
I totally relate to the feeling, yes. I can't add much because your description hit it right on the head, but I'd say I get those feeling not because of the world but because I just want everything to be over with, I guess I don't care whose fault it is, I'm just trying to find a solution.
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It sounds scary. I think nerves are very understandable. I wish you peace
No shame in changing your mind.
You'll always be welcome here
I did change my mind. Thank you very much, nice of you to say
