Venting i want to be free

[gardenoflonely]

I think I'm just done experiencing things and I'm at peace with that. Everything seems like a hassle and there's not much more I want to do or get out of life. I no longer have a job, best friend, relationship and I've put myself in debt. Every bridge is burned and I don't care enough to build new ones. Nothing is interesting to me not even myself. I barely feel like a person and in time I will be forgotten anyway. Maybe it's better that way. The repetition of falling down and constantly be expected to not only get back up on my own but also smile through the agony is just boring. I'm sick of it. I wish I could just be a blade of grass instead, literally anything other than this.

 

[girlsboysthems]

same. i hope the motorcycle im getting is going to fill the void. if nothing else i can always kill myself with it, no biggie.

 

[Mattew]

same. i hope the motorcycle im getting is going to fill the void. if nothing else i can always kill myself with it, no biggie.

If my expirience can help. I had a motorcycle and a really good friends group, i just lost interested once the depression hit again. Overall, the motorcycle, it was the best freedom expirience you can get.

 

[peacebenow]

I dream to be free.