I used to feel super pretty….

[saturn1402]

I just want to vent cause every day is such a struggle :/
I used to feel super pretty. I used to like my body a lot. Then my ex cheated on me with prostitutes, he was addicted to porn and he was often looking at other girls… at the end of the relationship he made a few comments like 'objectively prostitutes will always be hotter than you' or 'your ass is flat' or 'your face looks masculine ' . I know he said those things out of anger and I also know I wasn't kind to him during arguments. From that moment I developed a huge fear to go out because I find myself super ugly, I force myself to be in public but whenever someone makes eye contact I feel like they are judging how ugly I am. I know I haven't changed physically and although I used to feel very attractive, now I feel disgusting and I wouldn't want anyone to settle for someone like me when there are so many (inside and outside) beautiful women.

Before you ask yes I tried therapy but it didn't work.

And please no bad words about my ex. He really didn't know he would create so much damage with those words. He just wanted to make me leave him.

 

[dark archon]

I'm sorry you went through that. People can be horrible, especially during heated arguments.

I understand he probably meant a lot to you at the time, but you shouldn't change the way you feel about yourself just because of one terrible person or relationship.