Venting i think im going through religious psychosis (or so my friend claims)

[TheAngelBornInHell]

(islam)

I dont know whats wrong with me, Ive been getting triggered so bad about religion the past month. I hate getting some sleep paralysis and nightmares I see some demons telling me about god and repent or how the end of the world is coming. it sometimes get hallucinations but im not sure.
it jusf got to a point i decided to come bsck to religion so I told my mom im going to start praying by next week for the first time in 3 years and she was happy she said the people who were good and kept praying then suddenly stop for a very long time meant god hated them and forbid them physically from praying because of something they did and I deduced my relationship with my boyfriend (having a boyfriend is haram so..) is the reason that happened. and im really fixated on religion the past month i cant stop listening to the quran and podcasts about god it makes me feel insane but atleast it'll make me feel less anxious. you know Im not a miserable person im very happy and stuff but I think I was more happier when I was still praying.i really cant stop thinking about religion.

my co-worker always also shamed me for my lack of faith all year long and i ended up sick of it.

Im feeling both suicidal and super weird right now. I know suicide is haram.. But if i pray alot, maybe itll go away. maybe I wont have to worry about going to hell.or if I do end up cba ill go to heaven for praying hard enough.

 

[fadedghost]

(islam)

I dont know whats wrong with me, Ive been getting triggered so bad about religion the past month. I hate getting some sleep paralysis and nightmares I see some demons telling me about god and repent or how the end of the world is coming. it sometimes get hallucinations but im not sure.
it jusf got to a point i decided to come bsck to religion so I told my mom im going to start praying by next week for the first time in 3 years and she was happy she said the people who were good and kept praying then suddenly stop for a very long time meant god hated them and forbid them physically from praying because of something they did and I deduced my relationship with my boyfriend (having a boyfriend is haram so..) is the reason that happened. and im really fixated on religion the past month i cant stop listening to the quran and podcasts about god it makes me feel insane but atleast it'll make me feel less anxious. you know Im not a miserable person im very happy and stuff but I think I was more happier when I was still praying.i really cant stop thinking about religion.

my co-worker always also shamed me for my lack of faith all year long and i ended up sick of it.

Im feeling both suicidal and super weird right now. I know suicide is haram.. But if i pray alot, maybe itll go away. maybe I wont have to worry about going to hell.or if I do end up cba ill go to heaven for praying hard enough.

An Islamic psychiatrist may be able to help you understand whether your thinking is merely religious and therefore considered normal or clearly very psychotic.

i don't believe in religion at all. (please note the part at the bottom, my signature, is there for every post, not just yours)

usually psychiatrists say religious psychosis involves beliefs that are not normal among religious. to me, you sound psychotic if you are having hallucinations.

i don't believe in religion and think it's all delusional, but you also could see a Islamic psychiatrist (some must exist) who could help determine whether you have normal religious beliefs that are not considered psychotic among psychiatrists or are psychotic enough that intervention of some kind is warranted.

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[bl33ding_heart]

Please see a psychologist/psychiatrist if possible. The hallucination aspect is definitely not normal.