I no longer believe I have a mental illness, I believe I am depressed because of Capitalism.

[nembutal]

Which country do you live in? What is your ideal existence if capitalism did not exist? People who want more autonomy and equality often form communal groups. Is this something that interests you? What kind of support system do you currently have? Obsessing over capitalism to the point of contemplating suicide does not sound healthy. I hope you'll feel better soon.

but obsessing over improving your flaws is deemed healthy… because we are forced to believe that every one of our issues comes from some flaw within us… why is it so unhealthy to come to the acknowledgment that social expectations are the cause of all of your mental issues????

also, what is the point of asking what type of government the person would rather live under? to rouse some sort of debate? not everyone has the answer to this question especially when it is evident that society has never functioned under a government that prioritized ALL individuals. all i know is that the current state of things definitely makes being NOT suicidal an impossibility.

counterpoint to this, tons of martyrs are remembered and cherished.

the people i mentioned would have never been notoriously recognized for good deeds after their deaths. neither will the common individual. you must make headlines in order for your message to spread. good deeds do not make headlines.

 

[Unspoken7612]

If you weren't mentally ill then "I will kill myself to protest capitalism" is not a thought that would occur. That's not a rational thought, not remotely.

"I will kill myself because I see no prospect of my life improving to a tolerable level" might be a rational thought.

 

[xandermax]

Because nobody wanted to ctb under Stalin.

 

[uglyugly]

I prefer capitalism over, for example, socialism or communism, but that's me. I just can't live in a cage. I'd rather be free to start a business and do my own thing, even if that means that freedom means I'm poor as dirt, which I am. IMO it's better to be dirt poor and free than provided for and be a slave to the providers, but again this is only my opinion.

I'm not sure your ctb as a protest is going to change anyone's opinion on capitalism and it obviously will not end that system in society, but of course I do support your choice to ctb or not. I hope you find peace no matter what road you take.

Over the past decade or so there's been a lot of research showing magic mushrooms are very effective for treating anxiety, depression, PTSD and even treatment resistant depression. In the US many cities and 2 states have decriminalized or legalized it. On Nov 4 Massachusetts will vote to join them (6 cities in MA have already decriminalized them).

Since my state has allowed use of pot, my depression has most definitely decreased. We haven't done so for mushrooms yet.

 

[vinlander]

killing yourself as a way of "protest against capitalism" sounds stupid honestly.. IF a big YouTuber or whatever talks about your case and read your posts, the only thing that will happen is that your name will be transformed into a hashtag and is going to be used in leftist parades..
Thousands and thousands of people all around the world ctb everyday because of poor work conditions, inhumane labor and etc, and that's the biggest form of protest we could ever get against this economical and political system.. Losing your life in protest against something that don't consider you as an human but rather as a slave that contributes to the economy is just ridiculous. I'm not trying to be rude here in anyway and i really do want you to seek professional help as this is not healthy in anyway, i have to say that this just sounds like a cope, you're tired of living and just needed a reason to ctb while not feeling bad about it (as doing it as a form of protest would be a good act), but in all honesty all you need is a reason to live. And if you want to talk more about it you can visit the recovery threads or even talk to me! I may not be able to answer rapidly as I have school and stuff to do rn i'll hit you up when i can.