Discussion I am a hypocrite

[Zura]

yeah pretty much the title I just find this funny that i think i like the community on here and most of the people are sweet and have kindness in their heart and overall i would say i have a positive view of members on here more often than not they try to be supportive of others and stuff and are very helpful in general i think its cool that even when someone does decide to ctb on here most of the users try to provide a very comforting space to them and i think thats really nice

but i feel like if one of my loved ones where to find this site and were really depressed and suicidal and dead set on ctb and if they received that kind of support which would eventually lead them to taking their life i would look at this place very negatively even if they would be finally at peace ig for them but idk i guess i am a selfish piece of shit for that lol tho if i ever decide to ctb i would really appreciate all the support i could get lol lmao i am such a hypocrite

 

[Pure Vanilla]

at the end of the day strangers die every day so of course you wont be impacted if anyone in this community dies which is why you support it, tons of people on here would cry if they found out the person they love most is here

 

[K14~♡]

It's part of the grief so it can't rlly be helped...I think people are often selfish when they're in pain, especially the pain from losing someone. You'd end up hating anything that could be related to a loved one's death including this site, but at least you won't blame the person themselves hopefully. Ig it is hypocritical, but I don't think it's bad to seek support for what you want for yourself like ctb, while also detesting anything that would allow your loved one to die

 

[voc_89]

How I see it, it would have happened anyway. When you desperate enough u will find a way

 

[eggsausagerice]

no one wants their loved ones to die, even if you yourself want to die. people on sasu are hypocritical all the time. whenever i try to make friends on sasu and someone recovers, they try to motivate me to recover and don't want to talk about suicide with me anymore. or some members think that their reasons are worse while mine are fixable, so i should keep on living even if they die. it's just really hypocritical and makes no sense from my point of view. i got really tired of having their conversations over and over, but i think it's because it's human nature to care about the people around you instead of seek mutually assured destruction.

sasu is very kind when it comes to new members venting about their issues, and sometimes all a person needs to do is vent before they decide to go back to their normal life. i'm jealous of the people that stopped coming onto the forum because their life improved while i stayed here because i can only relate to other miserable people. some days i feel bitter remembering the conversations i had with other people about my suicidal thoughts and how people were implying i was too dumb to realize that i shouldn't kill myself, when it's my choice. if i was a loved one i'd probably have a similar mindset.

 

[SoLowHollow48]

yeah pretty much the title I just find this funny that i think i like the community on here and most of the people are sweet and have kindness in their heart and overall i would say i have a positive view of members on here more often than not they try to be supportive of others and stuff and are very helpful in general i think its cool that even when someone does decide to ctb on here most of the users try to provide a very comforting space to them and i think thats really nice

but i feel like if one of my loved ones where to find this site and were really depressed and suicidal and dead set on ctb and if they received that kind of support which would eventually lead them to taking their life i would look at this place very negatively even if they would be finally at peace ig for them but idk i guess i am a selfish piece of shit for that lol tho if i ever decide to ctb i would really appreciate all the support i could get lol lmao i am such a hypocrite

Ha! At least you have the heart to think that! Most just don't give a shit. Think of those who have lost their loved ones here.

Hell, I'd want to destroy this site too and everyone in it.

I do. Just too stupid to know how.

I mean, I advocate for suicide as a right and I do agree that the right to die is supposed to be recognized but when people who can still treat their conditions with more time and patience found this place and died because of it, I cannot include them within my principle.

I don't think that makes me a hypocrite. That makes me critical.