I Need to end the suffering

[urgent]

I have no way to stop this brutal pain. My life ended 3 years ago when I became disabled and all of my health problems destroyed my body. I wake up early in such unbearable pain I have to force food, a tiny bit, it makes my stomach pain more intense, I lay in bed all day trying to figure out how I can end it but I can barely walk, my mouth and lips hurt so bad, it hurts to talk, my finger tips hurt so bad, I have bedsores no matter what I try to stop, I have nerve pain, I'm so dehydrated trying to force water but with gastroparesis even that's he'll, force a couple bites of food, hard to swallow,lupus sores ,burning mouth and tongue syndrome is brutal, tongue burns and feels so raw and roof of my mouth, swallow more meds ,lay in bed hoping to fall asleep but won't happen until 3,4 am, toss and turn in pain for a few hours, unfortunately wake up to suffer in excruciating unbearable nonstop pain all day again, so hard to eat, nausea, all food tastes off because of mouth, eyed burning so dry can't tolerate light, always cold, This is not a way to live, just tortured existence, so exhausting, not one second without pain, why can't we have the right to have someone help us out when I'm not able to live, why can't I find someone to drop something in my mailbox, or set up a gas canister, I can't run my car in my garage, it's got stuff in it and I can't even drive anymore, I can't stab myself, if I jump out my window I would break all my frail bones and my neighbors would see me going in the ambulance again, we all should have the right to MAiD or N ,fentanyl would probably be OK but I don't know how to get it, I can't wait 6 months go through all the paperwork and 2 doctors and a mental exam when I can barely walk, my legs shake, my whole body does, but I can't think of anyone that would help me, I isolated from my group of friends that we've been bests since kindergarten, I miss them but I don't want them to see me like this, I haven't been able to go out with them in 3 years, the suffering is physical, mental and emotional, I need to find someone to bring me something, I really can't take the pain anymore, I needed to go years ago

 

[I_go_in]

I have no way to stop this brutal pain. My life ended 3 years ago when I became disabled and all of my health problems destroyed my body. I wake up early in such unbearable pain I have to force food, a tiny bit, it makes my stomach pain more intense, I lay in bed all day trying to figure out how I can end it but I can barely walk, my mouth and lips hurt so bad, it hurts to talk, my finger tips hurt so bad, I have bedsores no matter what I try to stop, I have nerve pain, I'm so dehydrated trying to force water but with gastroparesis even that's he'll, force a couple bites of food, hard to swallow,lupus sores ,burning mouth and tongue syndrome is brutal, tongue burns and feels so raw and roof of my mouth, swallow more meds ,lay in bed hoping to fall asleep but won't happen until 3,4 am, toss and turn in pain for a few hours, unfortunately wake up to suffer in excruciating unbearable nonstop pain all day again, so hard to eat, nausea, all food tastes off because of mouth, eyed burning so dry can't tolerate light, always cold, This is not a way to live, just tortured existence, so exhausting, not one second without pain, why can't we have the right to have someone help us out when I'm not able to live, why can't I find someone to drop something in my mailbox, or set up a gas canister, I can't run my car in my garage, it's got stuff in it and I can't even drive anymore, I can't stab myself, if I jump out my window I would break all my frail bones and my neighbors would see me going in the ambulance again, we all should have the right to MAiD or N ,fentanyl would probably be OK but I don't know how to get it, I can't wait 6 months go through all the paperwork and 2 doctors and a mental exam when I can barely walk, my legs shake, my whole body does, but I can't think of anyone that would help me, I isolated from my group of friends that we've been bests since kindergarten, I miss them but I don't want them to see me like this, I haven't been able to go out with them in 3 years, the suffering is physical, mental and emotional, I need to find someone to bring me something, I really can't take the pain anymore, I needed to go years ago

Hospital doesn't give you fent?

 

[copioushopelessness]

I have no way to stop this brutal pain. My life ended 3 years ago when I became disabled and all of my health problems destroyed my body. I wake up early in such unbearable pain I have to force food, a tiny bit, it makes my stomach pain more intense, I lay in bed all day trying to figure out how I can end it but I can barely walk, my mouth and lips hurt so bad, it hurts to talk, my finger tips hurt so bad, I have bedsores no matter what I try to stop, I have nerve pain, I'm so dehydrated trying to force water but with gastroparesis even that's he'll, force a couple bites of food, hard to swallow,lupus sores ,burning mouth and tongue syndrome is brutal, tongue burns and feels so raw and roof of my mouth, swallow more meds ,lay in bed hoping to fall asleep but won't happen until 3,4 am, toss and turn in pain for a few hours, unfortunately wake up to suffer in excruciating unbearable nonstop pain all day again, so hard to eat, nausea, all food tastes off because of mouth, eyed burning so dry can't tolerate light, always cold, This is not a way to live, just tortured existence, so exhausting, not one second without pain, why can't we have the right to have someone help us out when I'm not able to live, why can't I find someone to drop something in my mailbox, or set up a gas canister, I can't run my car in my garage, it's got stuff in it and I can't even drive anymore, I can't stab myself, if I jump out my window I would break all my frail bones and my neighbors would see me going in the ambulance again, we all should have the right to MAiD or N ,fentanyl would probably be OK but I don't know how to get it, I can't wait 6 months go through all the paperwork and 2 doctors and a mental exam when I can barely walk, my legs shake, my whole body does, but I can't think of anyone that would help me, I isolated from my group of friends that we've been bests since kindergarten, I miss them but I don't want them to see me like this, I haven't been able to go out with them in 3 years, the suffering is physical, mental and emotional, I need to find someone to bring me something, I really can't take the pain anymore, I needed to go years ago

I'm sorry you're in pain. I relate to this a lot. I have a laundry list of health problems.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I have no way to stop this brutal pain. My life ended 3 years ago when I became disabled and all of my health problems destroyed my body. I wake up early in such unbearable pain I have to force food, a tiny bit, it makes my stomach pain more intense, I lay in bed all day trying to figure out how I can end it but I can barely walk, my mouth and lips hurt so bad, it hurts to talk, my finger tips hurt so bad, I have bedsores no matter what I try to stop, I have nerve pain, I'm so dehydrated trying to force water but with gastroparesis even that's he'll, force a couple bites of food, hard to swallow,lupus sores ,burning mouth and tongue syndrome is brutal, tongue burns and feels so raw and roof of my mouth, swallow more meds ,lay in bed hoping to fall asleep but won't happen until 3,4 am, toss and turn in pain for a few hours, unfortunately wake up to suffer in excruciating unbearable nonstop pain all day again, so hard to eat, nausea, all food tastes off because of mouth, eyed burning so dry can't tolerate light, always cold, This is not a way to live, just tortured existence, so exhausting, not one second without pain, why can't we have the right to have someone help us out when I'm not able to live, why can't I find someone to drop something in my mailbox, or set up a gas canister, I can't run my car in my garage, it's got stuff in it and I can't even drive anymore, I can't stab myself, if I jump out my window I would break all my frail bones and my neighbors would see me going in the ambulance again, we all should have the right to MAiD or N ,fentanyl would probably be OK but I don't know how to get it, I can't wait 6 months go through all the paperwork and 2 doctors and a mental exam when I can barely walk, my legs shake, my whole body does, but I can't think of anyone that would help me, I isolated from my group of friends that we've been bests since kindergarten, I miss them but I don't want them to see me like this, I haven't been able to go out with them in 3 years, the suffering is physical, mental and emotional, I need to find someone to bring me something, I really can't take the pain anymore, I needed to go years ago

nobody understand how bad the constant worst pain is and how nothing could be worth even 10 seconds of the worst pain. to me nothing is worth even 3 seconds of the worst pain .

there are people like you who need and want to stop their constant unbearable pain but can't only because they made every guaranteed suicide method a crime like Nembutal , paying someone to shoot me , sarco suicide pod and more

It's so horrible they purposefully made Nembutal , hiring someone to help us escape extreme torture , sacro suicide pod crimes .

they are pure evil for torturing people and they make themselves out to be saving people

 

[sick&tired]

I have no way to stop this brutal pain. My life ended 3 years ago when I became disabled and all of my health problems destroyed my body. I wake up early in such unbearable pain I have to force food, a tiny bit, it makes my stomach pain more intense, I lay in bed all day trying to figure out how I can end it but I can barely walk, my mouth and lips hurt so bad, it hurts to talk, my finger tips hurt so bad, I have bedsores no matter what I try to stop, I have nerve pain, I'm so dehydrated trying to force water but with gastroparesis even that's he'll, force a couple bites of food, hard to swallow,lupus sores ,burning mouth and tongue syndrome is brutal, tongue burns and feels so raw and roof of my mouth, swallow more meds ,lay in bed hoping to fall asleep but won't happen until 3,4 am, toss and turn in pain for a few hours, unfortunately wake up to suffer in excruciating unbearable nonstop pain all day again, so hard to eat, nausea, all food tastes off because of mouth, eyed burning so dry can't tolerate light, always cold, This is not a way to live, just tortured existence, so exhausting, not one second without pain, why can't we have the right to have someone help us out when I'm not able to live, why can't I find someone to drop something in my mailbox, or set up a gas canister, I can't run my car in my garage, it's got stuff in it and I can't even drive anymore, I can't stab myself, if I jump out my window I would break all my frail bones and my neighbors would see me going in the ambulance again, we all should have the right to MAiD or N ,fentanyl would probably be OK but I don't know how to get it, I can't wait 6 months go through all the paperwork and 2 doctors and a mental exam when I can barely walk, my legs shake, my whole body does, but I can't think of anyone that would help me, I isolated from my group of friends that we've been bests since kindergarten, I miss them but I don't want them to see me like this, I haven't been able to go out with them in 3 years, the suffering is physical, mental and emotional, I need to find someone to bring me something, I really can't take the pain anymore, I needed to go years ago

I feel your pain. I have a lot of the same symptoms.. Neuro-sjogrens..suspected lupus.. full body neuropathy, so constant burning..major GI issues.. dysautonomia..pots..EDS.. I mean the most goes on. My life feels like it ended 2 yrs ago. If you ever want to chat, send me a message. Hugs.

 

[FuneralCry]

That truly is so horrific, I hope you find freedom from the torture.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I have no way to stop this brutal pain. My life ended 3 years ago when I became disabled and all of my health problems destroyed my body. I wake up early in such unbearable pain I have to force food, a tiny bit, it makes my stomach pain more intense, I lay in bed all day trying to figure out how I can end it but I can barely walk, my mouth and lips hurt so bad, it hurts to talk, my finger tips hurt so bad, I have bedsores no matter what I try to stop, I have nerve pain, I'm so dehydrated trying to force water but with gastroparesis even that's he'll, force a couple bites of food, hard to swallow,lupus sores ,burning mouth and tongue syndrome is brutal, tongue burns and feels so raw and roof of my mouth, swallow more meds ,lay in bed hoping to fall asleep but won't happen until 3,4 am, toss and turn in pain for a few hours, unfortunately wake up to suffer in excruciating unbearable nonstop pain all day again, so hard to eat, nausea, all food tastes off because of mouth, eyed burning so dry can't tolerate light, always cold, This is not a way to live, just tortured existence, so exhausting, not one second without pain, why can't we have the right to have someone help us out when I'm not able to live, why can't I find someone to drop something in my mailbox, or set up a gas canister, I can't run my car in my garage, it's got stuff in it and I can't even drive anymore, I can't stab myself, if I jump out my window I would break all my frail bones and my neighbors would see me going in the ambulance again, we all should have the right to MAiD or N ,fentanyl would probably be OK but I don't know how to get it, I can't wait 6 months go through all the paperwork and 2 doctors and a mental exam when I can barely walk, my legs shake, my whole body does, but I can't think of anyone that would help me, I isolated from my group of friends that we've been bests since kindergarten, I miss them but I don't want them to see me like this, I haven't been able to go out with them in 3 years, the suffering is physical, mental and emotional, I need to find someone to bring me something, I really can't take the pain anymore, I needed to go years ago

I needed to go years ago also.

Nobody understands how bad the worst pain is. and nobody understands that a person can fall into a trap of extreme torture as you have and therefore needs to have a guaranteed painless quick way to suicide which is the only way to escape the torture.

The guaranteed methods methods are there like Nembutal, paying someone to shoot me, sarco suicide pod and more . The only reason people suffering cant purchase these methods is the creeps made all of the methods into crimes .