Venting I just failed again.

[12345six]

I just need to ramble for a second and I dont have anyone i can talk to. I hate being alive I feel useless. I make others life's around me worse. Im an awful peice of shit. I always make everything about me and everything I do is for pity. I cant vent to myself with out feeling like im just trying to get self pity, I can vent to others without feeling like its just for pity. I know that everyone's life's around would be better off without me. They may not wanna say it outloud but I can feel it. Im scared of talking to anyone in fear that Im forced to go to a therapist or smth and they Medicate me and it makes me ignorant to how shitty of a person I am. I feel like shit for even writing this but at least I can use it as an excuse to get me closer to the search bar on this. Im sorry if this shjts all over the place im just typing as it comes to mind. If anyone knows tricks to make a partial hang more likely to succeed it would be much appreciated thanks.

 

[iwkmsssb]

i'm sorry you're going through this, i feel the same way. i feel like im burdening everyone around me and there's no use of me living anymore. still, yet despite all of my self hatred i chose to go seek help. i spoke out and they did make me go see a therapist, but they won't medicate you straight away. and not without your consent, only if you really need it. medication can go a long way from what i've heard but it is different for everyone. i haven't gone on any so i can't say for sure but i wouldn't be so against the idea, it could help and that hope keeps me going. i hope you find peace.