Venting I hope I don't exist in 2030

[needthebus]

I'm so fucking unhappy

I really hope I have the tenacity to leave this shitty world, I fucking hate everyone, I'm so fucking miserable. Everyone fucking hates me and is mean to me, and honestly I am so miserable I just radiate misery, I understand why people hate me, and I constantly say things that in every context leads people to say wtf. I try to just not say things generally, but get bored and lonely. I just wish back when I was sexually assaulted I had died then, then I had died a long time ago, instead of being stuck in this shitty never ending epilogue of fucking misery.

I hope it's sooner than that, I am so fucking miserable, but at least let me be gone by 2030... At least let me vanish by then and all this bullshit be done.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

People hate me too. And I've tried just not saying anything, too. That makes them hate you too. Because then they get creeped out and confused, and they don't know "who" you are. So damned if you do, damned if you don't.

I'm sorry for what you had to go through. That's awful. Me too. Never ending epilogue of fucking misery is a great way to phrase it.

 

[sadalways]

I feel like that too, no matter what i say, people seem to hate me and stop talking to me or straight up ignore me. I don't know what's up with it anymore. This has been happening forever, like 99% of the people i talk to end up hating/ghosting me. World is unfair. Hopefully whatever comes next is better than this shit.

 

[lawlietsph]

same. just want the pain to end. it doesn't matter how... just please let me out of this suffering, this constant pain and hurt. everything hurts so much and people are awful, awful, awful.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand just wanting to be gone, I also find it torturous to exist, I just wish to be free from the suffering of existing as well, to permanently not exist is all I hope for, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing but anyway I hope you find peace.