I have it all but I'm indifferent to living, anyone in the same boat?

[nitrogen]

I'm a Shiva follower (after a fashion, I'm not an Indian but the god speaks to me

So you overcame your identity & existential problems because God started speaking to you? How? To get to the bottom of objective reality, I've been on the quest of making contact with supernatural entities. I've tried God, demons, angels, aliens, Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva. By far, only demons and Ksitigarbha seem to have responded.

I'm dying to get my hands on DMT - the God molecule. Users describe being transported to a distant realm where they meet seemingly autonomous entities, and often those same entities appear to different people. Too bad the dark web got taken down.

Sadhus are doped all the time from smoking marijuana/ganja all day. Their munchies are probably so bad that slimy decomposed human corpses taste like beef jerky with gravy.

No she doesn't. Why would you wish this on someone? Shes allowed to feel how she wants. Thank the lord she hasn't experienced what mist of us on this site do. NOBODY deserves it. I wouldn't wish my brain on a soul in this world. that was a really mean thing to say

Many people think only the poor, the ugly, the abused, and the disabled have the right to suffer from depression. To them, people like me are entitled, ungrateful, whiny, spoiled brats; and when we vent, we're being attention whores. Thank you for standing up for me. That made my day.

 

[Sk1n1M1n]

It depends on how symptoms affect your life m rather than worrying too much about the the problems, problems can easily managed, things change and you learn live in the situation you've got. The issue a lot of people face is the symptoms and how they impact your situation, if you are going to bed normal, sleeping through the night, soundly it causing distress to your mind body, then it's okay, if it's not affectijg your appetite, etc then it's fine because biological things can alter how we respond and deal with stress,
also having panics attacks or anxiety can impair everyday life functioning, so if you've got assignment you gottta do and you haven't slept you are gonna feel groggy, brain fogged but a few days later it'a going to get more difficult.
depression can also affect your self esteem imagine having those dark thoughts that make just getting dressed difficult.