I have absolutely no goals in life, I do nothing. Just goal is die

[Defenestration]

Ugh, same. I "quietly quit" life years ago.

And what people say about this?
Good luck

 

[Leyna]

no goals here either. my only "goal" is to make and save enough money so my parents don't have to worry about finances and then just die.

 

[Pluto]

 

[blacksand]

2020-early 2023 were realistically the last time I had to change anything. I can't describe what has happened since then but it's literally like my brain is physically broken. On a very existential level I know that this melancholy is my life my identity my truth and it's set in stone.

 

[Defenestration]

2020-early 2023 were realistically the last time I had to change anything. I can't describe what has happened since then but it's literally like my brain is physically broken. On a very existential level I know that this melancholy is my life my identity my truth and it's set in stone.

Same thing for me....
Broken... I live automatically

 

[lawlietsph]

same here.
everything is so pointless, like why bother with anything at this point...
it is really hard to live like this honestly.

 

[Defenestration]

same here.
everything is so pointless, like why bother with anything at this point...
it is really hard to live like this honestly.

That's why i hate SI

 

[sohopelessandempty]

I have absolutely no goals in life, I do nothing. Not even the tiniest one.
My just goal is die since 2023...

When people tell me to start exercising, to eat better, to find a social purpose, etc., I tell myself that it's all pointless anyway because what I truly want is to die.

So I spend three-quarters of my days doing nothing. I'd like to die, but my survival instinct is strong, and I'd have to create a monumental void in my life, in my phone, at home, and rewrite my suicide notes. Too lazy for that, and I keep putting it off.

In fact, I'm here without really being here... I still hope I have the strength to die.

If it makes you feel better about yourself, I feel the same way. Don't think you're a bum for laying around and doing nothing, I'm sure a lot of us have fallen into that cycle. Sort of being checked out of life even though we're not dead yet. I am also too lazy to rewrite my suicide notes(if you've seen my last post it's about getting rid of them all which was a huge mistake for me).

 

[TAW122]

I have such feelings for most of my life, even during my adult life, where I just go through the motions of day to day life while yearning and hoping that the day and the right circumstances come to where I just simply CTB. In my mind, I know that after I CTB, nothing will matter anymore, but making sure everything is right and that I'm absolutely ready with close to zero chance of error is paramount.

Truthfully, it's more that I want to do nothing. I think that's why death appeals partly. But then, if I do nothing, I'll eventually suffer more. So- it's more that my goals are enforced now- rather than being genuine. I need money to live- which means working. I need to be fit enough to work- which means maintining basic hygienne, diet, living environment, exercise. It's such a struggle though. I just want to curl up, sleep and be free of it all.

I kind of feel the same way too, I think it's better to hold a facade of normalcy as to not tip off or raise any suspicion as to one's real intentions when in the process of planning, preparing, and eventually carrying out one's plans.

 

[Defenestration]

Si ça peut te rassurer, je ressens la même chose. Ne te sens pas comme un bon à rien parce que tu ne fais rien, je suis sûr que beaucoup d'entre nous sont tombés dans ce piège. On a l'impression d'être en quelque sorte déconnectés de la vie, même si on est encore en vie. J'ai aussi la flemme de réécrire mes lettres d'adieu (si tu as vu mon dernier message, il parle de m'en débarrasser, ce qui était une grosse erreur).

Thanks for this words