I have absolutely no goals in life, I do nothing. Just goal is die

[Defenestration]

Ugh, same. I "quietly quit" life years ago.

And what people say about this?
Good luck

 

[Leyna]

no goals here either. my only "goal" is to make and save enough money so my parents don't have to worry about finances and then just die.

 

[Pluto]

 

[blacksand]

2020-early 2023 were realistically the last time I had to change anything. I can't describe what has happened since then but it's literally like my brain is physically broken. On a very existential level I know that this melancholy is my life my identity my truth and it's set in stone.

 

[Defenestration]

2020-early 2023 were realistically the last time I had to change anything. I can't describe what has happened since then but it's literally like my brain is physically broken. On a very existential level I know that this melancholy is my life my identity my truth and it's set in stone.

Same thing for me....
Broken... I live automatically

 

[lawlietsph]

same here.
everything is so pointless, like why bother with anything at this point...
it is really hard to live like this honestly.

 

[Defenestration]

same here.
everything is so pointless, like why bother with anything at this point...
it is really hard to live like this honestly.

That's why i hate SI

 

[sohopelessandempty]

I have absolutely no goals in life, I do nothing. Not even the tiniest one.
My just goal is die since 2023...

When people tell me to start exercising, to eat better, to find a social purpose, etc., I tell myself that it's all pointless anyway because what I truly want is to die.

So I spend three-quarters of my days doing nothing. I'd like to die, but my survival instinct is strong, and I'd have to create a monumental void in my life, in my phone, at home, and rewrite my suicide notes. Too lazy for that, and I keep putting it off.

In fact, I'm here without really being here... I still hope I have the strength to die.

If it makes you feel better about yourself, I feel the same way. Don't think you're a bum for laying around and doing nothing, I'm sure a lot of us have fallen into that cycle. Sort of being checked out of life even though we're not dead yet. I am also too lazy to rewrite my suicide notes(if you've seen my last post it's about getting rid of them all which was a huge mistake for me).

 

[TAW122]

I have such feelings for most of my life, even during my adult life, where I just go through the motions of day to day life while yearning and hoping that the day and the right circumstances come to where I just simply CTB. In my mind, I know that after I CTB, nothing will matter anymore, but making sure everything is right and that I'm absolutely ready with close to zero chance of error is paramount.

Truthfully, it's more that I want to do nothing. I think that's why death appeals partly. But then, if I do nothing, I'll eventually suffer more. So- it's more that my goals are enforced now- rather than being genuine. I need money to live- which means working. I need to be fit enough to work- which means maintining basic hygienne, diet, living environment, exercise. It's such a struggle though. I just want to curl up, sleep and be free of it all.

I kind of feel the same way too, I think it's better to hold a facade of normalcy as to not tip off or raise any suspicion as to one's real intentions when in the process of planning, preparing, and eventually carrying out one's plans.

 

[Defenestration]

Si ça peut te rassurer, je ressens la même chose. Ne te sens pas comme un bon à rien parce que tu ne fais rien, je suis sûr que beaucoup d'entre nous sont tombés dans ce piège. On a l'impression d'être en quelque sorte déconnectés de la vie, même si on est encore en vie. J'ai aussi la flemme de réécrire mes lettres d'adieu (si tu as vu mon dernier message, il parle de m'en débarrasser, ce qui était une grosse erreur).

Thanks for this words

 

[sohopelessandempty]

Thanks for this words

of course <3

 

[3rdworldsadness]

I'm now like this. I used to study hard to get a good job but I don't now. I am in traumatic state where I literally am frozen can't do things without remembering how tough, how messy my life is. How so few opportunities I have. I don't know what I'm doing in my life I want to improve myself but I'm so stuck I want to get rid of me.

 

[Passenger4224]

Others like me?

Other than putting things off, my goal nowadays is to reach a satisfying 'ending point' with my hobbies and CTB.

 

[Echo]

Big goals I've realised are unachievable for me. As for the small goals I've given up on them too. I just have no motivation. I've never exercised because I'm lazy. I dont eat healthy because I just cant bothered. Travelling... what's the point I'm constantly miserable, if I travel, I'll just be miserable in a different place.

 

[dance0nglass84]

Same, I'm currently in college, but I just don't have the drive to work after graduating. No wants or goals. I truly just want to nap all day and listen to the birds, but that's not very sustainable if I don't have the money to take care of myself. And I don't even want to take care of myself. It's too much work. My goal at this point is to just ctb before things get bad.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Others like me?

Six months now and I've lived in my phone playing idle games. My mind is mush. I've forced myself through certain obligations but I don't think I can anymore. Things are gonna get bad. I know I'm not gonna go through with hanging because it's scary and painful. That leaves this rotting couch/bed life, dependent on my poor hardworking father. I can't imagine rising up even to clean my apartment, let alone become a self-sufficient member of society. I have to get over the ten seconds of pain. But it might as well be winning an Olympic medal. My whole mind is horror at my mislived life.

 

[Defenestration]

Hormis le fait de remettre les choses à plus tard, mon objectif aujourd'hui est d'atteindre un « point final » satisfaisant avec mes loisirs et CTB.

Your goal is ctb or distractions ?

 

[Passenger4224]

Your goal is ctb or distractions ?

My goal is CTB ... but I want to finish enjoying my hobbies before so

 

[chudpolonais]

Others like me?

absolutely me. no matter how many goals and ambitions I set for my self it just doesn't work out, I don't want it, I don't want anything at all, I just want to die

 

[meatballlover]

Others like me?

Most of us if i had to guess

 

[Defenestration]

La plupart d'entre nous, si je devais deviner

Ok thanks to Say me this