Venting I hate the way my autism presents. I don’t want to live like this.

[thelostautistic]

I feel very frustrated by the way my brain works sometimes. I'm the type of autistic who doesn't like to break the rules in any scenario and gets overly annoyed when other people do and get away with it. I come across as a know it all, too opinionated and argumentative when I don't mean to. I just like sharing information but people don't like that apparently. I don't know how to be care free and have fun. I can't relax and just unapologetically be myself because I've spent my life being demonised for even trying to. These things I've mentioned aren't necessarily negative traits but society will make you believe that they are and it's really confusing. Every one of my autistic traits has been picked apart and criticised and it's made me hate who I am

Am I as terrible as people make out?

 

[AnonAnon1234]

No you are not a terrible person at all. I have experience of two autistic teens and they are not horrible kids. They are hard work at times but it's just how they perceive the world and react/process differently to things. It's give and take, sometimes the world is crazy to pigeon hole things so everyone should react in a certain way and needs to be more understanding/accepting. Sometimes the teens need to see that the world cannot adjust everything so things are the way they would like.

There is no black and white answer as everyone and every situation is different. It's tough but you are not as terrible as people make out! You are not a bad person, just as the people around you are likely not bad people, just different levels of understanding and miscommunication.

 

[Painforever]

Then just ignore when people break small rules, and dont go giving so much information out. Listen to other people.

The world just is how it is, not how you think it should be, and you will have to adapt to that.

 

[Aflame5926]

I feel very frustrated by the way my brain works sometimes. I'm the type of autistic who doesn't like to break the rules in any scenario and gets overly annoyed when other people do and get away with it. I come across as a know it all, too opinionated and argumentative when I don't mean to. I just like sharing information but people don't like that apparently. I don't know how to be care free and have fun. I can't relax and just unapologetically be myself because I've spent my life being demonised for even trying to. These things I've mentioned aren't necessarily negative traits but society will make you believe that they are and it's really confusing. Every one of my autistic traits has been picked apart and criticised and it's made me hate who I am

Am I as terrible as people make out?

you are not terrible. you are how it should be.

i got somethin similair.
unfortunaly lying is better then being honest. that how the world works.
the illusion that honesty is better is wrong.

you need to start learning to lie.
also what Painforever saying.

you have to adapt or things keep being difficult.
the real colors of the world is showing up.

we all might be raised wrong ngl

 

[thelostautistic]

Then just ignore when people break small rules, and dont go giving so much information out. Listen to other people.

The world just is how it is, not how you think it should be, and you will have to adapt to that.

I do listen to other people. I know the world is how it is but I don't understand why I'm treated so poorly for something I can't help. I'm not doing anything inherently wrong. I just exist

I've spent my whole life adapting to how the world is by masking my autism and it's been extremely detrimental to my physical and mental health. But it's whatever. I also never said that the world had to be a certain way. I was just sharing my experience in it?

No you are not a terrible person at all. I have experience of two autistic teens and they are not horrible kids. They are hard work at times but it's just how they perceive the world and react/process differently to things. It's give and take, sometimes the world is crazy to pigeon hole things so everyone should react in a certain way and needs to be more understanding/accepting. Sometimes the teens need to see that the world cannot adjust everything so things are the way they would like.

There is no black and white answer as everyone and every situation is different. It's tough but you are not as terrible as people make out! You are not a bad person, just as the people around you are likely not bad people, just different levels of understanding and miscommunication.

Thank you for your kindness. Your point of view is really helpful for me