i hate myself

[ilk]

i cant even cry right now. i so badly want to hang myself already. i been staying up for days just thinking & working on my letter to my family. im losing myself more & more each day. depression you win. or whatever you is. some days it feels deeper than just being depressed & suicidal. like im losing my mind, like i dont belong here idk. i dont even know the point of this post. i just dont get it. i never will. what is wrong with me? why cant i be ok? i cant keep living this way. i cant change. i wont ever heal. why stay? just to suffer more? just to continue push my family away ? it pains me to but theres nothing they can do for me.

 

[fkyou]

Same it's painful I have to spare myself from the nonsense

 

[niki wonoto]

same here

- from Indonesia -

 

[unluckysadness]

Same. SI is so powerful. It doesn't make sense when life is over.

 

[fkyou]

Same. SI is so powerful. It doesn't make sense when life is over.

Literally.. it's so over but I'm still afraid of doing a simple procedure

 

[Carryline]

I hate myself even more

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I feel trapped in a body that won't die, like some kind of nightmare zombie hell. I really do think people such as yourself are clearly seeing reality.