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dinosavr

dinosavr

and if i’m turning blue, please, don’t save me 🌛
Dec 14, 2023
695
Since I've had my near-suicide-attempt moment when everybody found out I was suicidal, they care for me more than anyone would care for a baby. They eat with me, they work with me, they sleep with me, they visit doctors with me, etc. I'm sick of it. I mean I know I can't do much about it because they have a right to worry about me, but still, I'm a huge introvert and I need more time alone.
If you have any ways to do that except for sleep deprivation or staying in the bathroom for hours, hit me up please :)
 
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Hystearical

Hystearical

In tears
Jul 23, 2022
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Hopefully the intensity will calm down soon.
 
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Sylveon

Sylveon

Mage
Oct 10, 2023
529
Wish we could switch places. 🫂🤍
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Visionary
Apr 15, 2024
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This is why I'm scared of telling anyone I am suicidal or failing an attempt. I know I'll lose freedom and alone time.
 
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rayray

rayray

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Jul 14, 2024
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Since I've had my near-suicide-attempt moment when everybody found out I was suicidal, they care for me more than anyone would care for a baby. They eat with me, they work with me, they sleep with me, they visit doctors with me, etc. I'm sick of it. I mean I know I can't do much about it because they have a right to worry about me, but still, I'm a huge introvert and I need more time alone.
If you have any ways to do that except for sleep deprivation or staying in the bathroom for hours, hit me up please :)
Sorry if this sounds dumb but ask for alone time? Explain how you need personal space without being watched and supervised
 
fleetingnight

fleetingnight

incapable of shutting up
May 2, 2024
662
Would you feel comfortable with people being in the same house/apartment as you, but not in the same room? If so, maybe you'd both feel more comfortable that way. It'd be pretty difficult to actually CTB without them hearing anything at all, I think, so maybe you could explain you're an introvert and convince them that it'll be alright.

I know it's not the same as being totally alone, but maybe it's a little better than the way things are now. Besides that, unfortunately idk, besides waiting it out (which sucks) People will calm down about it in time, and I hope that time passes quickly
 
dinosavr

dinosavr

and if i’m turning blue, please, don’t save me 🌛
Dec 14, 2023
695
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Sorry if this sounds dumb but ask for alone time? Explain how you need personal space without being watched and supervised
Would you feel comfortable with people being in the same house/apartment as you, but not in the same room? If so, maybe you'd both feel more comfortable that way. It'd be pretty difficult to actually CTB without them hearing anything at all, I think, so maybe you could explain you're an introvert and convince them that it'll be alright.

I know it's not the same as being totally alone, but maybe it's a little better than the way things are now. Besides that, unfortunately idk, besides waiting it out (which sucks) People will calm down about it in time, and I hope that time passes quickly
Oh actually you might both be right. They might probably understand it if I explain it to them. I'll definitely try!
 
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MyTimeIsUp

Perhaps I'll be important when I'm long gone?
Feb 27, 2024
529
Explain to them how you feel suffocated, and it isn't helping, it is making you worse. You need time alone, literally everyone does.

It's good that you acknowledge it's because they don't want you to hurt yourself, but as an introvert myself, I've been in this situation and it is awful.

Please speak up

I hope it gets better for you
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,736
It is horrible. On the flip side, and I don't say this to diminish or invalidate what you're feeling, so is being left to get on with it. I mean, I don't want to be on suicide watch by friends - it was bad enough on the ward - but being abandoned entirely is pretty miserable too.

Sucks, whichever way you look at. Hope you're at least milking them for lots of mugs of tea. Still haven't managed to train the dog to make me one.
 
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