I guess this is it!

[Lovemykids]

Never thought I would be writing one and tonight I'm catching the bus with N

I think it's good that some events just make me snapped

I wrote this before I'm taking the N unsure how long it takes to pass out

Seconds after I post this message I'm going to take my N

I have 150 ml without any mix in 1 glass
100 ml mixed with 50 ml maple syrup
2 glass of whiskey
1 dark chocolate bar

I've checked in a nice hotel suite

Have my laptop setup with YouTube streaming with private link only

Laptop is connected to VPN with new google account for the YouTube so yes its not traceable and set to private streaming with shareable link

The YouTube link is only for some family I sent by WhatsApp

I removed my sim from my cellphone
Factory reset and no google account connected

Leaving with 10% battery and settings to factory reset upon 2 wrong pin on my phone

Removed fingerprint authentication

Removed google history activity on my google account

I checked in hotel using cash, avoided credit card so no one can track me incase there's APB put up for me

I parked my car 30km away

I scheduled email for after 7 hours to be sent using boomerang

Letters to police on desk

Letters to coroner office on desk

I will try post message "I'm here until I knocked off every 2 min"

I swear I pray this better not be painful

I want to thank and hug u all that I spoke to and not spoken to

Wish u all find peace
I love my children so much
I feel like crying out loud but I'm just calm and tears flows...never felt so much lonely as this before
It's a beautiful day
Life is beautiful
Peace

 

[Trashcan]

Good luck and godspeed. We will miss you and hope you find peace <3

 

[Maravillosa]

Good luck and Godspeed, @Lovemykids -- may peace and joy be yours forever

 

[No1SpecL2U]

May your soul fly free on your peaceful journey.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

Safe travels

 

[Lovemykids]

Took it and still her
Feel little jittery

 

[Lena]

Dude. I'm praying for you

 

[Lovemykids]

A little drowsy still here
Feeling anxious but relaxed and weak

 

[Maravillosa]

Took it and still her
Feel little jittery

<<<Hugs>>> I suppose it would feel normal to feel jittery and anxious when one is ctb'ing -- it is the first time that you are dying, after all. Soon you will know for sure what (if anything) happens when we die. Peace. Praying for you. When you get to Heaven (God willing), please pray for us.

 

[Lra888]

Peace to you.

 

[Putridsoul]

Farewell, and I'm sorry.

 

[AnnonyBox]

Here's wishing you find peace.

 

[Goldie]

A little drowsy still here
Feeling anxious but relaxed and weak

Omg wow you did it!
I remember reading your msg that your initial N got intercepted.
I'm so happy I happened to be online when you did it so I could say goodbye

 

[jaemus12]

Peace. Good luck and goodbye.

 

[Lena]

Man it seems he's already passed out...

 

[Goldie]

Yep. I think so. Kind of sad I didn't get to say goodbye

 

[Goldie]

A little drowsy still here
Feeling anxious but relaxed and weak

Are you here? Or have you gone?
We are all thinking of you.

 

[starcrossedfate]

Go easy.

 

[ouvreyes]

Rest in Peace.

 

[hikikomori]

farwell and good night

 

[MachineGunDani]

Sending love

 

[Nem]

Holy crap, I was hoping to speak to you before you went and then saw your name was off. I hope you find your peace bro, it was great chatting with you and all the best.
Hugs!!!

 

[Putridsoul]

Are you here? Or have you gone?
We are all thinking of you.

I mean he took N and he is not answering. To be honest this is disheartening.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

Peace be with you, I wish I was so brave.

 

[worldexploder]

Just know that we ALL love you! I wish you a peaceful journey on the quest to end your suffering!

 

[Maravillosa]

You all can't really be

I mean he took N and he is not answering. To be honest this is disheartening.

How is it disheartening, @Putridsoul? I suppose the N knocked him out pretty quickly.

 

[Dani Paradox]

Good luck, man. It's so sad that it's come to this for all of us. I hope everything goes smoothly for you in your passing on <3

 

[BeHope]

You'll be in my thoughts, Lovemykids. Good luck.

 

[dysfunctional]

Enjoy your peace.

 

[Goldie]

What were Lovemykids reasons for doing it?