I gave therapy a try and therapist was nice I guess

[watchingthebuses]

No meds just CBT and I liked the therapist, they said unless I tell them I'm chopping my arms off as soon as I leave the room, they're not gonna tell anyone. Seemed genuinely sympathetic and understanding, I appreciated it.

Last session was scheduled in person but I got notification saying it was telehealth. Oh well, I wait for the call. Never came, I guess it was supposed to be in person. I don't think I'll reschedule. I felt relieved cause I was feeling guilty cause I feel like I was gonna be the same regardless and I was probably taking time and resources away from people who'd actually benefit from it.

I feel like it was nice to give it a go, but as I see in bunch of threads here, some of us are just meant to be not alive lol. Maybe. I don't think any coping technics will help change that. I just wish CTB was more accepted so that we don't feel stuck here because of other people.

 

[cornicecream]

therapists are often a hit or a miss. so glad you found one you seemed to click with. i think as bad as everything is, if you can access therapy, might be good to give it a try. and dont think you're taking resources from anyone who needs it, because you arent. theres enough to go around <3

 

[gbi2]

When I first saw a therapist last year she was so understanding . She even told me about certain other forums I could visit, youtube channels that will help. she was totally clued up about it all. Back in therapy now with one of her colleagues, this one has said things like "you need to just start doing things for yourself. Write things down, stick the note on the door". I shouted at her "But what happens when you have been doing that and you still forget or get things wrong. I've been struggling more and more for the past 7 years despite writing things down. You are one step behind and can't help me if you don't catch up.

On Tuesday I had a phone appointmnet with her and she asked me if I'd followed her previous advice to get financial help. When she was telling me that help I was online doing it and told her there isn't any way to do what she is telling me, all there is, is a redirectiuon buttin to the other webiste I used. Yesterday she said she needed to speak to someone and I heard her say "In the olden days they used to go onto this website..."

And that was it "In the olden days". As I suspected she hasn't made any self progress with her knowledge on mental health issues since she graduated. It hasn't been how she said for around 10 years now. She also said "Oh I don't do the youtube thing".

That's the difference between a good therapist and bad one. The thing is the bad one doesn't actually have a bad attitude, she just isn't clued up enough. There are ones who are worse than her that others are having to deal with.

So yes, that can be hit and miss.