Help I feel so ugly

[social construct]

I want to die. I feel like the ugliest person on this planet. I can't look at myself in the mirror without makeup. I can't even go to the bathroom without putting make up on. I'd refuse to go out of my room without at least something covering my face. I don't know what to do about it. I fear I am really close to resorting to unethical measures such as peptides, steroids etc whatever will help me look less unfortunate. Does anybody have any experience with this? Is it really worth it? If I'm gonna die by 30 at least I'm gonna die pretty.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Um, can you share what's "unethical" about peptides etc?

 

[social construct]

Um, can you share what's "unethical" about peptides etc?

I'm seeing a lot of people saying no long term research etc. I'd pinning random chinese testing radioactive looking liquids into your system seems lowkey insane.