When I was more little, I used to be scared of the idea of laying on bed, and people shutting off whatever system was keeping me alive, even worse if they had a smile on their faces, like they were actually happy that I was gone. Now, though, I don't care anymore. All I want is to be freed of all this pain that only gets worse with every second that passes. I lose more and more of my humanity, and I feel more and more apathy towards everyone.
All I want is to just disappear. I don't even wish pity or empathy anymore, or to be understood. I don't care if people laugh at me as I die. Or if they point their fingers at me and call me a failure as I cry, and a loser, and "you're pathetic, disgusting, the world will be such a better place without you", I just don't care. If I'm going to stop suffering... then nothing else matters.
All I want is to just disappear. I don't even wish pity or empathy anymore, or to be understood. I don't care if people laugh at me as I die. Or if they point their fingers at me and call me a failure as I cry, and a loser, and "you're pathetic, disgusting, the world will be such a better place without you", I just don't care. If I'm going to stop suffering... then nothing else matters.
