I changed my mind. I'm doing it tomorrow

[BabyBlueSedan]

I planned to do it in a few weeks but I feel so miserable. I wanted to do it today but I was too late - it was dark and my phone was dead so I couldn't use a flashlight. So I was just walking in the dark near the woods with a rope in my bag. I'm going to hang myself tomorrow before work, I just hope it's not gonna rain. It's a weird feeling, knowing that you're doing everything for the last time. It's my last beer, last time I go to sleep, last time everything's normal. Kind of an anticlimactic ending for my life but I guess it's fitting. Maybe it won't be, who knows, maybe I'll chicken out or the rope will snap or something else will happen. We'll see.

 

[FuneralCry]

I so envy and admire those with the courage for hanging, I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[Unending]

I'm sorry you're in pain. I hope that no matter what happens, you're able to find relief sooner than later. <3

 

[Red-Eyed-and-Blue]

That may be one of the most frightening aspects of ctb for me, the finality of all the little things. The last time I go for a walk, brush my teeth, my last sip of water, the last time I call my dad... there will be a last time for everything I suppose. Good luck with whatever you do, hope you'll find peace.

 

[GasMonkey]

See you on the Other Side.

 

[almostoutofhere]

I'm hoping to go tonight as well, I'm just over waking up every morning wishing I didn't.