I carried on fighting for a month longer and things just got worse

[boingo]

I was going to ctb a month ago, I have horrific illnesses and I decided to keep fighting and take the treatment for it, the drugs gave me peripheral neuropathy and didn't treat my condition. I now can't use my hands without pain and weakness and I'll never be able to do my job ever again. It also gave me tinnitus so now I sit awake with that all night. I've spent all of my money on doctors, they cause more harm to me than anything else. My family abuse me and tell me nothing is real, I have feelings of wanting to murder them before I kill myself. I plan to jump off a crane as soon as I can. I just feel bad for my dog but I'm dying anyway.

 

[SexyIncél]

Damn! I'm sad to hear that. Reading your history, I'd say your feelings towards awful people are justified and understandable. I know people in similar situations, ruined by the awful people around them

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrible what you have to go through and it's just so disgusting and unfair how other people create more suffering. People like that certainly just make this world a more hellish place.