I can’t take it anymore

[tiredandconfused]

I have given all I can to life. I know I should be stronger but reality is I'm not. I don't have anything left. I want to go peacefully. I have tried a few times over the last few years but survival instinct has stopped me. I don't try and end it for attention. It's the opposite I have tried. I know it's time. I can't do this anymore. I can't take the thought of living. I don't know if anyone else has had this problem with getting close but not being able to go through with it.

 

[Lost Magic]

Yeah, I understand completely. It's not easy to end one's life. For some, it takes a lot of courage and for others, in reality, it never transpires. All I can say to you is, to try to take some time to gather your thoughts. Maybe you are not ready yet. Ultimately whatever you decide to do will be your choice. There is no rush to ctb, is there? I know this is hard for you. I feel it too. Just don't rush into something that you are unsure about. Best wishes!

 

[aforestfire]

i always feel that i'm close from dying, but when i see, i'm another week alive, and that becomes a month. survival instinct is awful, it convinces you that there's something to live for, even if knows is a lie.
i'm sorry you're hurting, i wish you find peace at some point.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it's so tiring and dreadful feeling trapped here when you really wish to leave. It's so unfortunate how suicide is this difficult and how we have to struggle so much in finding ways to leave this cruel and horrific world behind, the fact that suicide involves risks and complications for me is the only reason as to why I'm still here, of course I would be long gone if suicide is much easier for us. But I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[tilly17]

I have given all I can to life. I know I should be stronger but reality is I'm not. I don't have anything left. I want to go peacefully. I have tried a few times over the last few years but survival instinct has stopped me. I don't try and end it for attention. It's the opposite I have tried. I know it's time. I can't do this anymore. I can't take the thought of living. I don't know if anyone else has had this problem with getting close but not being able to go through with it.

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way.
I can't stand living this way any longer . Been trying since October to CTB abut haven't been able to bring myself to follow through yet. Getting sicker by the day. Planning on ctb Sunday night as I just can't go on. Scared to pieces of what I'll endure using SN.