acdef0
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- Feb 9, 2024
- 6
Ok, I'm very sure that I have ocd or something, but there's nothing I can do about it. Everything where I live is on a long waiting list and I can't keep going on like this. I don't want to imply anything as I'm too much of a coward to do anything to myself, but I just wish there was an easy way out. I can't stop obsessing over things and it's ruining my life. People think it's not hard but it is, and I have to be like this forever. I know there's medication I can get, I know there is therapy I can try, but as I said everything is on a waiting list. Everyone tells me to just not think about things but it's so, so hard. I end up obsessing over numbers instead if I'm not fixated on whatever I was obsessing over and that equally drives me insane. It's getting really difficult to stay asleep and I keep waking up in the middle of the night. I woke up at 3am and now it's 5am. I'm really tired but it's like as soon as I close my eyes my thoughts start getting bad again. I can go for a walk, I can draw, I can play games, I can do literally anything relaxing, but I'll always come back being like this
