I can't stand being in a woman's body

[Alexandra0]

My gender dysphoria appeared in childhood
It is so terrible to be in a body that you hate, despise, I can't look at myself in the mirror, and I can't do anything about it, I want to free myself from my hateful shell.
Sometimes when I walk down the street or look from the balcony and see handsome guys, tears flow from my eyes. I literally can't take my eyes off them. Especially those who are handsome, young and healthy. I envy the body they live in. Sometimes, when I walk behind a guy, I stare at him from head to toe.
I know that there are many like me and I feel so sorry for all of us. It's unfair when things like this happen.
My parents said that they might give me money for a sex change in Thailand, but it won't save me. After all, I want to die first of all because of a physical illness that brings me great suffering. And I live in a homophobic country, no one would change my documents. I am not a transsexual, it is simply impossible here. Unfortunately, I look very feminine.
I want to wish people who suffer from the same affliction - strength, luck and fulfillment of desires. And for myself, I only want to wish that my bus arrives as soon as possible

 

[bankai]

I've always wondered about this quite a bit. It's our minds that determine our gender, not our bodies so it must be immensely difficult being stuck in the wrong body. I'm sure it's a hell that I cannot even imagine. I'm so sorry.

I know you have multiple troubles apart from this. I hope you can find peace somehow.

 

[EternalSkies]

<3

 

[Alexandra0]

I've always wondered about this quite a bit. It's our minds that determine our gender, not our bodies so it must be immensely difficult being stuck in the wrong body. I'm sure it's a hell that I cannot even imagine. I'm so sorry.

I know you have multiple troubles apart from this. I hope you can find peace somehow.

Thank you

 

[darksouls]

I am so sorry you have to go through all this
I think the soul has no gender
I was biologically born a woman
but I define myself as genderless
even though I look very feminine

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

I have often thought that it was a curse to be born female, and that the extremely flawed design of our bodies is evidence that there cannot be a perfect, all-loving, all-knowing God. Unless he just hates us.

 

[lostinthesauce]

I'm really sorry about that. I'm a transgender man who has been out since my early teens but I'm fortunate enough to live in a good state in the US. I hope one day you can have the space to be yourself, although I know that is hard where you are from. :(

I started out looking very feminine in the beginning of my transition, like you describe. But now, my coworkers (men included) never even guess I am transgender. I wouldn't give up because of that. There's many ways to change how you look to others even without any documents or surgery needed.

 

[regretfulsoul]

My gender dysphoria appeared in childhood
It is so terrible to be in a body that you hate, despise, I can't look at myself in the mirror, and I can't do anything about it, I want to free myself from my hateful shell.
Sometimes when I walk down the street or look from the balcony and see handsome guys, tears flow from my eyes. I literally can't take my eyes off them. Especially those who are handsome, young and healthy. I envy the body they live in. Sometimes, when I walk behind a guy, I stare at him from head to toe.
I know that there are many like me and I feel so sorry for all of us. It's unfair when things like this happen.
My parents said that they might give me money for a sex change in Thailand, but it won't save me. After all, I want to die first of all because of a physical illness that brings me great suffering. And I live in a homophobic country, no one would change my documents. I am not a transsexual, it is simply impossible here. Unfortunately, I look very feminine.
I want to wish people who suffer from the same affliction - strength, luck and fulfillment of desires. And for myself, I only want to wish that my bus arrives as soon as possible

i feel you. i have it too but reverse. i'll have a 16.5" bideltoid and a huge ribcage and i'll be 5'9 and a 23" skull, enormous nose and jaw and brow ridge forever. i'll be a man until a die. diy estrogen is a complete placebo. Although maybe it's just bc i starve myself.

No one understands this disease. It's so brutal im so sorry.

especially for me when it was completely preventable. There was once a time when the unbreakable glass wall between my world and theirs didn't exist. And 2 pills a day could have allowed me to just step over. But that time is gone. I'm trapped in this body and I can't escape. ur not the only one ):

 

[Alexandra0]

I'm really sorry about that. I'm a transgender man who has been out since my early teens but I'm fortunate enough to live in a good state in the US. I hope one day you can have the space to be yourself, although I know that is hard where you are from. :(

I started out looking very feminine in the beginning of my transition, like you describe. But now, my coworkers (men included) never even guess I am transgender. I wouldn't give up because of that. There's many ways to change how you look to others even without any documents or surgery needed.

Thank you. It's so good that you were born in the US, I hope you live happily ever after. If I had been born in your country, it would have been much easier for me. Our government has gone completely crazy, now they don't even give drivers licenses to LGBTQ+ people. And I don't even want to talk about what's happening in Chechnya - it's just a nightmare come true. It's good that I live far from that wild region

 

[Bowerbird]

Me too. I am like 5'2 and baby faced, no matter how much t i take people will probably always be able to tell im a freak and im different and like. Im always going to be one of those people that is skinny and weak and tiny. And Just looking at me theres something obviously different about me and people can tell. I will never pass or blend in well. I feel vulnerable like I have a target on my back and if the wrong people found me I could get hurt and its scary to think about and everyone in my family thinks I am over reacting but idk.

 

[snooperdooper]

My gender dysphoria appeared in childhood
It is so terrible to be in a body that you hate, despise, I can't look at myself in the mirror, and I can't do anything about it, I want to free myself from my hateful shell.
Sometimes when I walk down the street or look from the balcony and see handsome guys, tears flow from my eyes. I literally can't take my eyes off them. Especially those who are handsome, young and healthy. I envy the body they live in. Sometimes, when I walk behind a guy, I stare at him from head to toe.
I know that there are many like me and I feel so sorry for all of us. It's unfair when things like this happen.
My parents said that they might give me money for a sex change in Thailand, but it won't save me. After all, I want to die first of all because of a physical illness that brings me great suffering. And I live in a homophobic country, no one would change my documents. I am not a transsexual, it is simply impossible here. Unfortunately, I look very feminine.
I want to wish people who suffer from the same affliction - strength, luck and fulfillment of desires. And for myself, I only want to wish that my bus arrives as soon as possible

Gender dysphoria is truly a sickening, unique mental illness. The majority of the population could never grasp the type of pain people with it suffer through and what it does to them. And, sadly, the majority of the population is hardwired to hate things that don't make sense to them. It is extremely hard to cope with gender dysphoria on its own, but you also have to deal with the barrage of hate and government restrictions. I used to cry and cry and cry over this predicament, but now I just laugh at the absurdity of it.

I mean, we're forced to suffer from hate and harassment from other people because we're forced to suffer hate and harassment from our own minds? That idiotic scenario has completely transcended depression for me. I just find it laughable the world God has put us in.