Im too scared. My hands are shaking and I feel like im gonna throw up. I hate myself so much. Im not able to live properly now im not able to fucking kill myself what's wrong with me im so sick of myself
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Worndown
Angelic
- Mar 21, 2019
- 4,155
Don't beat yourself up over not being able to easily exit. It is one of the most difficult things to do.
truehappiness
Member
- Mar 3, 2026
- 5
Please don't think too much about it. I know that is easier said than done, but you need to understand that everyone has a "survival instinct" in them.
It is one of the most difficult things to voluntarily exit, as the one before me already posted.
There is always another day and maybe you can still do something before the day comes?
knowledgeseeking
Student
- Apr 5, 2025
- 103
It's a scary thing. I'm going to do it tonight and I'm scared but still feel like I'm going to go through with it, but I could also get scared last minute.
Don't beat yourself up. I imagine most of us have felt this.
May I ask your method?
Im going with hanging wbu?
Its scary but i know its something we have to overcome. I wish it was easier to ctb. Its not fair we have to suffer so much
knowledgeseeking
Student
- Apr 5, 2025
- 103
I'm going with a less recommended or maybe recommended against doing method. I am going to take a couple grams of heroin and some other opioid I can't remember the name of, loading in a syringe and taking it IV. I got some extra syringes and some saline so I could practice hitting the vein.
You have a much stronger method, I just don't think I would have the courage for it.
It will happen when you're ready or maybe when you find a method you're more aligned with.Similar threads
