I appreciate what your doing

[SolomonKado]

I seem to have this problem that the longer I keep going and pushing then the more comes my way. Maybe I was this horrible/horrific person in a past life and this one is my punishment or someone/something is bored and this is pleasure for them. I looked at the PPH and I don't seem to have any access to any of the items. Short of Charcoal/Grill. I could seal up the garage, but fear anything going through attic to rest of house. I used to smoke cigarettes in there during the winter months and could smell it in the rest of the house even though I couldn't see any openings short of tiniest gap around garage door. I'm running out of time and horribly my other alternative is not so painless/peaceful.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't personally believe in past lives, I just think that existence is unnecessary suffering all for no reason with no deeper purpose behind it, but to me it's certainly inhumane how we exist in a world where suicide is made as difficult as possible for people. Anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for, existence really is too cruel.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I seem to have this problem that the longer I keep going and pushing then the more comes my way. Maybe I was this horrible/horrific person in a past life and this one is my punishment or someone/something is bored and this is pleasure for them. I looked at the PPH and I don't seem to have any access to any of the items. Short of Charcoal/Grill. I could seal up the garage, but fear anything going through attic to rest of house. I used to smoke cigarettes in there during the winter months and could smell it in the rest of the house even though I couldn't see any openings short of tiniest gap around garage door. I'm running out of time and horribly my other alternative is not so painless/peaceful.

Welcome to the forum. So sorry this dreadful world has brought you here.
You can use a freestanding dome tent and seal any parts where the fumes may escape with duct tape.

 

[SolomonKado]

2000 mg trazodone? Also a news story on visine drops being used? Is that an option? Will it be P and P.I would camp out in my back yard or go on a "camping trip", but I can't get myself to leave my house and the backyard is full of 3-4 foot tall weeds. Is it regular charcoal from the store? Kind of lost the "Will." Also, the crack downs the government has done on things like H, SN, and others put a kink in things.

 

[SolomonKado]

I seem to have this problem that the longer I keep going and pushing then the more comes my way. Maybe I was this horrible/horrific person in a past life and this one is my punishment or someone/something is bored and this is pleasure for them. I looked at the PPH and I don't seem to have any access to any of the items. Short of Charcoal/Grill. I could seal up the garage, but fear anything going through attic to rest of house. I used to smoke cigarettes in there during the winter months and could smell it in the rest of the house even though I couldn't see any openings short of tiniest gap around garage door. I'm running out of time and horribly my other alternative is not so painless/peaceful.

I figured it out. I did a lot of research on charcoal burning and as long as it's big enough then the garage should be fine. I got about 28 lbs and some lighter fluid. Going to use my medium sized backyard wood burning firepit. Should spread it out so I can put more to go faster. I just worry about fumes everywhere. Im going to take some traz and zantac just in case 20-30 minutes before. Then fire up the grill. I already have my motorcycle title set aside for my sister. What do you think?