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noname223
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- Aug 18, 2020
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When I think about my horrible past, the abuse by my parents and my horrendous future I get so sick. The desire to put an end to this is strong. All my failures in the past hurt so god damn much. At this point it is so unlikely that anything will work. I will further try to get better but my problems are not really solvable. I am such a loser the last girl I had a crush on denied me because I went paranoid. This always happens when I meet a girl. I am so ashamed about it. From work I get either manic or severly depressed. I am just waiting for another psychosis and then I want to ctb. This agony is so useless. I wish would have never been born. Even without the abuse the probability to have a shitty life with my genes is too high.