Venting I am fat

[alreadyfound]

I am fat and it makes me hate myself even more. When I see other girls with mental illness they are always super skinny and dainty, they look vulnerable so people are compassionate for them and want to help them. 



When you are fat people naturally hates you and have no sympathy for you no matter how much you suffer. And it's worse when you try to take medication because they make you literally obese and ugly. Why do people are so disgusted by fat and ugly people? I don't deserve to be treated like a subhuman. If only I lost some weight I'm sure it would improve my mental health so much, but instead of having the illness that disgust you from food I have the one that makes you crave fucking junk food all the time. If only I could cut my appetite with some drugs or anything I could be happy but I have no way to get some, so I will stay fat and suicidal.

 

[Dinnerwith6]

I hate how big of an appetite I have. People won't give a glance if I ate too much, but if someone else stopped eating they'd immediately get concerned for the person. They have this reason that "Well, if the person is eating, they're getting sustenance in so it's not as bad" when they shouldn't even be comparing, it just sucks that over eating has become almost normalised nowadays. You shouldn't be treated any differently to anyone else just because you have a different body, it's low for one to assume people chose to have the body they're in. You shouldn't have to have such thoughts of yourself, you deserve kindness and love. ^^

 

[youpi]

I mean, there's many reasons.
Fat and pretty or pretty and fat ?

 

[endboss]

I got fat from clozapine and stress. I don't give a fuck anymore. My last date was 13 years ago and I can't leave the house now anyway.

 

[blackorchid]

same here. I'm exhausted af.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I am fat and it makes me hate myself even more. When I see other girls with mental illness they are always super skinny and dainty, they look vulnerable so people are compassionate for them and want to help them. 



When you are fat people naturally hates you and have no sympathy for you no matter how much you suffer. And it's worse when you try to take medication because they make you literally obese and ugly. Why do people are so disgusted by fat and ugly people? I don't deserve to be treated like a subhuman. If only I lost some weight I'm sure it would improve my mental health so much, but instead of having the illness that disgust you from food I have the one that makes you crave fucking junk food all the time. If only I could cut my appetite with some drugs or anything I could be happy but I have no way to get some, so I will stay fat and suicidal.

Having maintained a healthy weight for most of my life, my upcoming ctb led me to neglect my fitness routine, resulting in a weight gain of 10 to 15 kilograms over the past year. This change has made me acutely aware of society's superficiality and bias against weight gain. It is disheartening to observe how quickly people prioritize physical appearance over character and personality.

 

[softfur]

I hate how big of an appetite I have. People won't give a glance if I ate too much, but if someone else stopped eating they'd immediately get concerned for the person. They have this reason that "Well, if the person is eating, they're getting sustenance in so it's not as bad" when they shouldn't even be comparing, it just sucks that over eating has become almost normalised nowadays.

people think the only eating disorders are restrictive eating disorders and everybody has one and it makes me insane

 

[FadingFast2023]

As someone who dealt with weight issues their whole life ... the ultimate solution is easy. When you say you are hungry all the time you are describing carb addiction. Do a keto diet (low carb) and your urge to eat evaporates, you lose weight without ever counting a calorie, it also helps with mental issues, skin issues. It's hard at first then you adjust. My bigger problem now is maintaining my weight.

 

[dearn]

This. Exactly THIS !

I hope you will find the tranquility you want and that you will lose some weight if it's your goal ! Genuinely


I can't even count how many times I've been asked for my number "for a friend" by groups of men who think they're funny. I can't count the number of times clothing store employees told me not to try something on because it "wouldn't fit." I can't count the number of times people told me to go on a diet. I can't count the nights I spent crying alone in my bathroom, disgusted by my face and my body. Or all the bullying I've endured and still endure

God made me a MENA girl, and if I'm not being bullied, I'm being oversexualized by creepy fetishists online. There is no in-between. Either I should die and go to hell, or they sexualize me first and then I should die and go to hell.

I just keep losing and gaining back the same 15 kilograms over and over again. I wish I weren't so weak and that I could control this eating disorder that's destroying me. Losing weight would make me less miserable, but I feel completely stuck.

Even when people call me an attention seeker or accuse me of fishing for compliments (when I'm genuinely not), I'll never be able to see the body I'm actually building. I'm trapped by the image I have of myself at my highest weight

It honestly makes me so sad when girls who want to gain weight tell me online that my body is "goals." At that point, just tell me to kill myself, it'd be faster.

I know they mean it as a compliment, and I don't blame them for it ( maybe a tiny tinsy bit ) , but it just hurts. They see something I spend every day trying to change. It's such a weird feeling to be someone's goal while you're stuck hating the body you're living in.

Sorry for this long ass message. I thanks anyone that took the time to read even if I think nobody did ‍