Venting I am a lazy person

[kipstriesagain]

I've been a lazy person since I was a child.
The other day I was cleaning out my stuff and found a notebook with a comic in it from when I was little. I started it but never finished even though I clearly had the intention to. I found a more recent(2 or so years ago) piece of art I started and never finished even though it looks good. So I decided to start working on it again but then I almost immediately got tired and decided to put it away. I hardly ever finish anything I start, when I do finish something it's done lazily or just because it HAD to get done. I don't believe I'll ever complete anything in my life of value. I don't have the capacity for it. I know this is how I am yet I still try and start things and get disappointed when I don't finish them. I wish I had any motivation or resolve. I don't want to put the effort into changing anything so it'll be this way forever. The only person whose fault it is is mine.

 

[Bubba]

Tell me about it
Lost my scholarship because i was to lazy to attend

 

[Tautochrome]

Not necessarily laziness and not necessarily your fault. Could be how your brain is wired, with a borked dopamine system. There's a chance you're not getting enough chemical rewards to continue your tasks

 

[twistedtransistor47]

I feel this... it's so hard to get better and the effort it will take to turn my life around and fix things is too much so I just do nothing because it's easier.

 

[Alpacachino]

Not necessarily laziness and not necessarily your fault. Could be how your brain is wired, with a borked dopamine system. There's a chance you're not getting enough chemical rewards to continue your tasks

Unfortunately, this is also true. What is the difference between a motivated and a lazy person? It's this kind of reward system.

Many people are content to just label people as either winners or losers or lazy or hard working. But it's not that simple.The thing is, hard working people feel genuinely good about their hard work. Or even if they don't feel good about the work during, they will definitely feel good after.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I can be extremely lazy. I also have a bunch of unfinished creative projects. Are you afraid of failure? If you want to try to change, you could try something where not finishing something has real life consequences. I did courses and had a Etsy shop for a while to give myself fixed goals that I needed to achieve. I tend to find I need that outside pressure to focus me. I struggle to create stuff just because.

 

[ScaredCutter]

i struggle with completing thinhs and even starting things to get somewhere. i lack a shit ton of energy and motivation, ive expressed it a lot but my family disregatds and would rather see me as a lazy person. i cant keep up wkth tasks, i cant move forward for anything.

im always told about "oh but what if this dituatiom happens, what will u do!!" and it just makes it so much more harder to do anything about it. its like theres these expectations that i MUST do otherwise im just a "lazy person who "chooses" to not do anything" and it just makes me mad.

i used to draw myself but ive given up on it entirely because i couldnt get any energy for it. its been long but i used to be asked why i stopped. why i cant do things, why i usually sit at my pc and devices, that i "refuse" to learn any skills.

i used to leave things til the last day because i couldnt find "time" to do it even though im free almost everyday, no plans or anything. i slept a lot, play games and watch videos.

i so badly want to regain motivation and energy but lacking it makes it so fucking hard to try and put effort into it.

 

[Gangrel]

tell me about it, it sucks, i have no energy for things too, but it's just how we are wired, not getting the right chemicals for it or something

 

[kipstriesagain]

i struggle with completing thinhs and even starting things to get somewhere. i lack a shit ton of energy and motivation, ive expressed it a lot but my family disregatds and would rather see me as a lazy person. i cant keep up wkth tasks, i cant move forward for anything.

im always told about "oh but what if this dituatiom happens, what will u do!!" and it just makes it so much more harder to do anything about it. its like theres these expectations that i MUST do otherwise im just a "lazy person who "chooses" to not do anything" and it just makes me mad.

i used to draw myself but ive given up on it entirely because i couldnt get any energy for it. its been long but i used to be asked why i stopped. why i cant do things, why i usually sit at my pc and devices, that i "refuse" to learn any skills.

i used to leave things til the last day because i couldnt find "time" to do it even though im free almost everyday, no plans or anything. i slept a lot, play games and watch videos.

i so badly want to regain motivation and energy but lacking it makes it so fucking hard to try and put effort into it.

Yeah. It sucks. For me it's the cycle of wanting to do something ->im not good at thing/its hard->no energy to keep trying because I'd rather not try than fail.
I feel lucky that I even want to draw anymore especially with how frustrated I get that I'm not at the skill level I want to be at. It's probably because it's my only hobby though.
I wish u the best..

Not necessarily laziness and not necessarily your fault. Could be how your brain is wired, with a borked dopamine system. There's a chance you're not getting enough chemical rewards to continue your tasks

My brain IS bonked. It just doesn't want to get better. I've tried medical treatments in the past but they never worked out in the long run unfortunately

I can be extremely lazy. I also have a bunch of unfinished creative projects. Are you afraid of failure? If you want to try to change, you could try something where not finishing something has real life consequences. I did courses and had a Etsy shop for a while to give myself fixed goals that I needed to achieve. I tend to find I need that outside pressure to focus me. I struggle to create stuff just because.

I think doing something like that would freak me out more lol... I am afraid of failure I guess but in more of an angry way. Does that make any sense? Like I hate to see there's no improvement. Maybe I do need outside pressure but I'm not sure what that could be for me.