Discussion How to manage

[new life]

Every day we all live in pain and have to through shit. How do you all manage to get through each day until it is time to ctb for you.

 

[LMLN]

I try to distract myself with household chores and television. If I can get out it can help, but that's hard with the virus quarantine. I look forward to sleep and do that as much as I can.
On very bad days I drink...but it makes the next day much worse after sobering up. But sometimes the pain is just soooo bad I cannot bear it.
I'm sorry for all of us.

 

[new life]

I try to distract myself with household chores and television. If I can get out it can help, but that's hard with the virus quarantine. I look forward to sleep and do that as much as I can.
On very bad days I drink...but it makes the next day much worse after sobering up. But sometimes the pain is just soooo bad I cannot bear it.
I'm sorry for all of us.

I do watch television and movies so might continue doing that intill the bus arrives. I try and go out but there is not a lot to do were i live, and the virus is causing issues aswell. I sleep nearly all thw time whats not to like about it, unfortunatly I am still breathing and wake up. I do not really drink so i cant do that. Althoigh i might when i ctb to help with nerves etc. The pain for me is so bad like it is for you when you sober up, like every day.

 

[faust]

Most of the time I am on this forum,
It is a bit hard to distract myself but it can be walking or may be taking a bus somewhere by the sea.
Though these ways are not bulletproof...

 

[new life]

Most of the time I am on this forum,
It is a bit hard to distract myself but it can be walking or may be taking a bus somewhere by the sea.
Though these ways are not bulletproof...

Thanks i am on this forum most of the time aswell. I like the sea so i might try that. I do drive so i could drive to the sea. No ways are bulletproof i know that. That is why i have chosen ctb to be at peace and end the pain.

 

[faust]

Thanks i am on this forum most of the time aswell. I like the sea so i might try that. I do drive so i could drive to the sea. No ways are bulletproof i know that. That is why i have chosen ctb to be at peace and end the pain.

Nature itself is healing, though it cannot heal all the wounds.

 

[new life]

Nature itself is healing, though it cannot heal all the wounds.

Is that your quote thats really nice, do you mind if i use it for Twitter etc.

 

[highlyvolatile]

Help my grandparents out with what they need. Watching tv and eating sweets. Playing COD mobile. That's it.

 

[waterbottleman]

I don't know how I get through each day, I just somehow do.

I guess I still get some enjoyment in cooking, reading, and watching the news.

But it's the really small things now that are the only glimmers of light in my life left.

 

[braketimez]

I meditate for 15 minutes a day. That is extremely difficult for me to do, but it affects me the rest of the day, so it pays off. I also play my hand drum, watch movies, and attempt to do some freelance work. I end up getting exhausted pretty quickly though.

 

[Yomyom]

A lot of junk food, and watch family guy.

 

[new life]

I don't know how I get through each day, I just somehow do.

I guess I still get some enjoyment in cooking, reading, and watching the news.

But it's the really small things now that are the only glimmers of light in my life left.

I understand what u mean. In my life i look for anything positive, but that is not a lot at all if anything. I just have to fight to keep going like all of us untill i ctb.

 

[terry_a_davis]

Got no choice but to manage (well i suppose i have, i could ctb). I use the net, study, walk my dog, talk with family.
Spoke to my friend earlier today over the phone, he'd just got out of hospital after attempting suicide by OD, he's battling cancer and sounded the most depressed i'd ever heard him.

 

[new life]

I meditate for 15 minutes a day. That is extremely difficult for me to do, but it affects me the rest of the day, so it pays off. I also play my hand drum, watch movies, and attempt to do some freelance work. I end up getting exhausted pretty quickly though.

I have attempted to meditate before but it does not work for me, i cant sit still long enough whuch is probably due to my autism. I am glad it works for you thow and helpa with the rest of your day, well done for doing it if you find it extremely hard for you. I like movies espechally horror or to do with murder. I get exhausted every day with living but don't we all.

 

[braketimez]

I have attempted to meditate before but it does not work for me, i cant sit still long enough whuch is probably due to my autism. I am glad it works for you thow and helpa with the rest of your day, well done for doing it if you find it extremely hard for you. I like movies espechally horror or to do with murder. I get exhausted every day with living but don't we all.

Ah, I can imagine the autism makes it difficult :/ . Sometimes, I do pacing meditation (walking meditation) if I can't sit still. That seems to help a bit as well. Or tossing a ball between my hands to calm down.

I am ALSO fond of horror movies...I'm about to watch one now, actually. I'm so effing tired.

 

[new life]

Help my grandparents out with what they need. Watching tv and eating sweets. Playing COD mobile. That's it.

I like COD but have only played on xbox. Might have to try mobile. I like TV as well but hardly anything on these days thats, why i stick to movies.

A lot of junk food, and watch family guy.

I love family guy as well as south park. Sound like somebody who i would get on with.

 

[Yomyom]

Wow, how can you sleep with all the horror movies, I know that in the moment I see something scary there's no sleep for me on that day

 

[BlackPoppet]

Got no choice but to manage (well i suppose i have, i could ctb). I use the net, study, walk my dog, talk with family.
Spoke to my friend earlier today over the phone, he'd just got out of hospital after attempting suicide by OD, he's battling cancer and sounded the most depressed i'd ever heard him.

 

[new life]

Got no choice but to manage (well i suppose i have, i could ctb). I use the net, study, walk my dog, talk with family.
Spoke to my friend earlier today over the phone, he'd just got out of hospital after attempting suicide by OD, he's battling cancer and sounded the most depressed i'd ever heard him.

That is so true for most of us on here we just have to manage till our time. I have to study for uni to ensure i dont raise any suspicion with staff, that something might be wrong. I walk my dog as well, i have a jack russel who never listens but that is typical for that breed. I speak to my mum but only again to avoid any suspicion that i am going to ctb. She is the only family member i soeak to. Sorry to hear about your friend, he is going through a tough time with cancer but wanting to ctb as well is double hard on him. I can see why he feels depressed.

 

[terry_a_davis]

It put my problems into perspective he's only in his 40's like me. Knew him since we were in primary school and had some great times with him over the years.

 

[BlackPoppet]

It put my problems into perspective he's only in his 40's like me. Knew him since we were in primary school and had some great times with him over the years.

I lost both my Grandparents to cancer. My Grandad to Duodenal cancer and my Nan to Throat cancer. I may not have the disease but I've seen what it can do. I empathize completely. My thoughts and prayers are with your friend.

 

[terry_a_davis]

That is so true for most of us on here we just have to manage till our time. I have to study for uni to ensure i dont raise any suspicion with staff, that something might be wrong. I walk my dog as well, i have a jack russel who never listens but that is typical for that breed. I speak to my mum but only again to avoid any suspicion that i am going to ctb. She is the only family member i soeak to. Sorry to hear about your friend, he is going through a tough time with cancer but wanting to ctb as well is double hard on him. I can see why he feels depressed.

I have a jack russell/patterdale terrier cross, cheeky arent they! He's my boss.
I don't know what i'd do if my friend actually wanted help on ctb as through this place i know there are peaceful almost guaranteed methods.

 

[new life]

Ah, I can imagine the autism makes it difficult :/ . Sometimes, I do pacing meditation (walking meditation) if I can't sit still. That seems to help a bit as well. Or tossing a ball between my hands to calm down.

I am ALSO fond of horror movies...I'm about to watch one now, actually. I'm so effing tired.

The autism is part of the reason i want to ctb. I might try one of the ideas i don't know yet thow. Watch a horror movie if u fall asleep you fall asleep.

 

[Donk]

sadly i have no motivation to do anything other youtube reddit and netflix. most of my days im wasting time in bed. i find it so difficult to do any tasks. i would have ctb by now if my wife and family wasnt around

 

[new life]

Wow, how can you sleep with all the horror movies, I know that in the moment I see something scary there's no sleep for me on that day

Quite easy orthow sometimes i end up getting dreams that i am in them LOL.

It put my problems into perspective he's only in his 40's like me. Knew him since we were in primary school and had some great times with him over the years.

Its so sad that he has to deal with this, i hope he has support.

 

[terry_a_davis]

I lost both my Grandparents to cancer. My Grandad to Duodenal cancer and my Nan to Throat cancer. I may not have the disease but I've seen what it can do. I empathize completely. My thoughts and prayers are with your friend.

Thanks. My dad died from oesophageal (sp?) cancer that spread to his liver, lasted 4 months. My friend had prostate cancer he thought he beat but it's come back 2 years later to his oesophagus too. Not pleasant a way to go. If i got terminal cancer i'd be ctb.

 

[new life]

I lost both my Grandparents to cancer. My Grandad to Duodenal cancer and my Nan to Throat cancer. I may not have the disease but I've seen what it can do. I empathize completely. My thoughts and prayers are with your friend.

Cancer is horrible i hope they find a cure that works.

 

[terry_a_davis]

Quite easy orthow sometimes i end up getting dreams that i am in them LOL.

Its so sad that he has to deal with this, i hope he has support.

He has a wife but they live as friends now but they get on well, he has 3 adult children and a grand daughter (grandad in his 40s!).

 

[new life]

I have a jack russell/patterdale terrier cross, cheeky arent they! He's my boss.
I don't what i'd do if my friend actually wanted help on ctb as through this place i know there are peaceful almost guaranteed methods.

They are definitely cheeky. My friend dosent want help on ctb, i want to ctb. You are on about me right if not sorry i misunderstood.

sadly i have no motivation to do anything other youtube reddit and netflix. most of my days im wasting time in bed. i find it so difficult to do any tasks. i would have ctb by now if my wife and family wasnt around

I love youtube and netflix. Netflix is my go to place for movies. I just sleep mostly all the time, but unfortunatly wake up. I feel for your pain, i hope you can ctb and find peace soon if thats what you choose to do.

Thanks. My dad died from oesophageal (sp?) cancer that spread to his liver, lasted 4 months. My friend had prostate cancer he thought he beat but it's come back 2 years later to his oesophagus too. Not pleasant a way to go. If i got terminal cancer i'd be ctb.

I would to if it was me. Cancer is not nice.

He has a wife but they live as friends now but they get on well, he has 3 adult children and a grand daughter (grandad in his 40s!).

At least he has support.

 

[terry_a_davis]

@new life about your dog, are you afraid of walking him/her now with the coronavirus being about, it's making me question whether i should still be walking my dog? Also are you still attending uni?