
ValkyrieCain
Drifting away
- Dec 18, 2024
- 38
Jumping has been one method on my list to ctb, there's a bridge beside where I live; The forth Road bridge; around 800 people have jumped to their death here with around only 3 survivors. It also method that's pretty accessible for me without needing to purchase or source any products.
I've overdosed in the past 3 times on tablets and had a failed hanging I was able to get myself out of before I passed out; what if with all my previous attempts I believed at least a part of me did that this isn't how I'm going to die and I would do something to survive ?
Now going back towards the question of how to overcome the fear of jumping; I tried jumping off this bridge once before but I just couldn't do it; even when I sat on the railings I just couldn't bring myself to make the final leap, no amount of self convincing was able to make me make the jump.
I'm considering it again soon, but Im afraid I may pull out again like I did. I don't want this thou as I've my mind set on going, then what's holding me back ? The feeling of uncertainty of what happens after I die ? Why should this bother me if I plan to take my life ?
Im considering getting drunk before I try again, maybe this will help eliminate my SI to some extent ? If any of y'all have any other solutions to this Im open to anything.
I've overdosed in the past 3 times on tablets and had a failed hanging I was able to get myself out of before I passed out; what if with all my previous attempts I believed at least a part of me did that this isn't how I'm going to die and I would do something to survive ?
Now going back towards the question of how to overcome the fear of jumping; I tried jumping off this bridge once before but I just couldn't do it; even when I sat on the railings I just couldn't bring myself to make the final leap, no amount of self convincing was able to make me make the jump.
I'm considering it again soon, but Im afraid I may pull out again like I did. I don't want this thou as I've my mind set on going, then what's holding me back ? The feeling of uncertainty of what happens after I die ? Why should this bother me if I plan to take my life ?
Im considering getting drunk before I try again, maybe this will help eliminate my SI to some extent ? If any of y'all have any other solutions to this Im open to anything.