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How old are you?

  • 20-30

    Votes: 46 44.2%
  • 31-40

    Votes: 24 23.1%
  • 41-50

    Votes: 14 13.5%
  • 51-60

    Votes: 4 3.8%
  • 60+

    Votes: 1 1.0%
  • 18-20

    Votes: 15 14.4%

  • Total voters
    104
Nobody'sHero

Nobody'sHero

Lost in the world
Mar 24, 2025
238
Just wondering how old everyone is on this board
 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,395
you forgot to include people that are 18 or 19.
 
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grapevoid

grapevoid

Mage
Jan 30, 2025
528
Wow …so if we can make it to 50 we might have a decade of peace?
 
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Nobody'sHero

Nobody'sHero

Lost in the world
Mar 24, 2025
238
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Ijustcantanymore

Ijustcantanymore

Experienced
Nov 22, 2024
237
Gonna be 35 this year. I fucking hate it.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,267
too old. old enough. i guess my age doesn't really matter to me as i was never meant to live this long. anything past 18 shouldn't have happened
 
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whitetaildeer

whitetaildeer

Wreck & Rule
Aug 5, 2024
305
19, turning 20 in a week.
 
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TornReality

TornReality

Member
Mar 18, 2025
43
I'm, 46? I think. I don't know. Lost count years ago.
 
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FishRain3469

FishRain3469

Specialist
Mar 12, 2025
333
41 and hating every fckn bit of it.
 
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Nobody'sHero

Nobody'sHero

Lost in the world
Mar 24, 2025
238
Thank you for all of your responses, I really appreciate you taking the time to answer the poll. I want to make additional polls so we can hopefully learn about each other more and where we come from, what be believe, what we have done, etc. The questions are still unclear, but hopefully I will get the opportunity to put all of the information I obtain in a single post. I'm happy to have found this place and knowing that I am not alone in my struggle, I have not met many people who I can be myself with and I am glad to have that opportunity here. I send thoughts, prayers and a huge hug to everyone <3
 
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FrownyFace

FrownyFace

Is it suicide or sabotage you think
May 15, 2024
42
Just turned 24 13 days ago.
 
divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
Any specific reason why or was it just like coming to accept harsh reality at 35?
Ya that and had tried all available depression treatments without success. You ?
 
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Lo$t95

Lo$t95

Hello Darkness my old Friend
Jul 16, 2024
267
Ya that and had tried all available depression treatments by none without success. You ?
The whole book…

antidepressants/therapy/psychiatric wards and extended times inpatient. Then alcohol/SH/drugs to get by.

I think it's more acceptance for me that suicide is the path of least resistance - I am too tired to persevere into the future.
 
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divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
The whole book…

antidepressants/therapy/psychiatric wards and extended times inpatient. Then alcohol/SH/drugs to get by.

I think it's more acceptance for me that suicide is the path of least resistance - I am too tired to persevere into the future.
I understand me to especially after we gave it our all
 
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kosmischerunfall

kosmischerunfall

Student
Jan 7, 2024
196
18 sadly feel like being childish is viewed negative by some and i feel like they expect me to act all grown up suddenly🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡
 
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Fresh Soju

Fresh Soju

~🍻자살처럼🍶~
Oct 11, 2020
453
18 sadly feel like being childish is viewed negative by some and i feel like they expect me to act all grown up suddenly🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡
Nah fuck that, I am staying childish forever, whether 30 or 40 or 50 or more if I don't CTB until older age.
Life is too shit to live in otherwise and to act all ~ mature and boring as shit and oooo so fancyy with muted af same copy-pasta colors with no originality or imagination or anything fun or unique ~ 🤮🤮🤮🤮
 
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Nobody'sHero

Nobody'sHero

Lost in the world
Mar 24, 2025
238
18 sadly feel like being childish is viewed negative by some and i feel like they expect me to act all grown up suddenly🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡
I feel like you have to grow up at some point (to a certain extent). That does not mean that your spirit is crushed and you become a boring, tame person... At 18 I was just starting to fuck my life up with drinking and drugs, I'm now 29 and don't do that anymore but I am stuck with the consequences/regrets/time lost/ confusion... I didn't even realize what was going on at the time (not that I know much more now) but I wish I could have avoided "growing up" in that way... I wish I had taken my time to grow up into myself naturally. 18 is just starting out... Really hope you find the peace and acceptance you are searching for. I was looking at some of your posts and it broke my heart. Try and avoid going down the path of destruction, everyone's experience and path is different <3
 
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