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agony1996

Student
Jul 8, 2024
144
How many people would ctb right now if you had a painless reliable method, without giving it a second thought?
 
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Thisisme373

Thisisme373

Arcanist
Feb 16, 2019
418
If I had a gun I'd do it now, also Nembutal I would.
I wish there was a button to press to just instantly die with zero pain, I'd hit that button so quick
 
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huntermellow

huntermellow

another bpd death statistic
Aug 6, 2024
151
i think i'd still want to wait until the end of the year
 
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Mlifos & Sitoa

Mlifos & Sitoa

nothing gets better
Aug 17, 2024
73
Me. Now. Right fucking now. Not even waiting for a second. I need a gun soooooooo bad!
 
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GuessWhosBack

GuessWhosBack

The sun rises to insult me.
Jul 15, 2024
452
I would but I'm waiting for a few months for logistic reasons. But I'd be lying if I said I didn't want to go right now.
 
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agony1996

Student
Jul 8, 2024
144
If I had a gun I'd do it now, also Nembutal I would.
I wish there was a button to press to just instantly die with zero pain, I'd hit that button so quick
That's my dream to a button you could press and be gone in a second without giving a thought to anything.
 
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Ariii

Ariii

Student
Oct 29, 2023
151
Right now after I wipe all of my devices, accounts, emails, and online activity
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,962
I know I would have left this painful and cruel existence a long time ago if I had the means to painlessly prevent all future suffering, the fact that I cannot have such causes me to suffer so much, personally I only wish for non-existence, I'd never wish to be burdened with the ability to exist, all I find comfort in is never existing again.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
Yes, if I had a painless way to ctb, I'd take it immediately. I wouldn't ever let the opportunity pass
 
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Sheeanabrugh

Sheeanabrugh

Tired and in pain
Aug 19, 2024
30
How many people would ctb right now if you had a painless reliable method, without giving it a second thought?
I would probably chicken out honestly. I'm not brave
 
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strngpass

Member
Aug 10, 2024
22
Instantly out.
 
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annikae

Member
Aug 16, 2024
58
If I had a gun I'd do it now, also Nembutal I would.
I wish there was a button to press to just instantly die with zero pain, I'd hit that button so quick
I'll always thought this!! Like a computer. It would be so wonderful.
 
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Sheeanabrugh

Sheeanabrugh

Tired and in pain
Aug 19, 2024
30
That's what I'm afraid of too
Isn't it funny that your body physically rejects what you know you need? Like thousands of years of evolution meant to stop us from doing what we feel like we need
 
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agony1996

Student
Jul 8, 2024
144
Isn't it funny that your body physically rejects what you know you need? Like thousands of years of evolution meant to stop us from doing what we feel like we need
I feel like it's another way for the universe to torture
 
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Steff1337

Steff1337

Autistic and schizophrenic, please be respectful
Jun 21, 2024
633
I would. This day, during the night.
 
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zaza23

Member
Apr 14, 2024
17
Faster than opening this thread
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,649
right now i would leave and be glad it's all over
 
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dagyu

dagyu

Member
Aug 20, 2024
12
right now, no ones life would be any different.
 
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DOHARDTHINGS24

Warlock
Apr 30, 2024
709
I could be ready in 5, maybe 10 minutes.
And I'd be beyond thrilled, even if it wasn't painless, just guaranteed.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,332
I would kill myself today now , if I had my method / plan at a 99.5% plus level of reliability of killing me these 30 trillion monstrous cells they call a human body I'm trapped in
 
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dimgobaith

Student
Jun 17, 2024
119
If I could get loose ends tied today I would if not I'd still give it to the end of September
 
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hamleic

Member
Aug 12, 2024
16
MEeee. i want it now so everything will be over
 
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Manfrotto99

Arcanist
Oct 10, 2023
459
Instead of taking sleeping tablets, I would take N right now if I had it so I do not have to wake up to another meangless painful day alone without my dog and nothing to live for.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,329
rn it's 50/50 here. Idk what I really would do immediately. There're pros and cons for both decisions.
 
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Isbel88

Banned Scammer
Jun 19, 2024
70
I have a painless method, or so it is supposed to be. Here in Peru it is still possible to get N and I have two doses. But the survival instinct does not help me. I guess I have a very strong survival instinct. It is difficult for me. Sometimes I would like to do CTB with someone else but I don't know if it is possible. I never thought that ending my own life would be so difficult.
 
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