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I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
705
very certain. This is the reason for ctb and my only regret
Unless there's a procedure to fix DNA, then I can't be repaired.

Just like there's nothing that will make a pile of poop smell pleasant.

My brain is impaired. How I perceive the world and life in general - is in direct opposition to how life is "supposed" to be lived.

I'd need a couple of lobotomies in order to enter the "fixed" stage.
omg this, exactly this...::((
 
DeathToSpiesSMERSH

DeathToSpiesSMERSH

Member
Feb 22, 2023
78
I don't think there's much that can be done for me at this point. I feel so closed off and isolated from others and struggle to make connections, through either being too depressed or just too autistic to make those connections. I have horrible traits that have stuck with me for years and I think it would be a lot better if I just CTB'd myself. For the benefit of myself and others.
 
D_Ana

D_Ana

Member
Feb 21, 2023
6
I want to keep living, i really do, but...Im not sure if i really want to live or im just livin to not cause more problems to my family, today i got some new meds from my psyquiatrist and i already take them, hopefully i feel better this coming days, but still this is not true happiness, its just a chemical reaction in my brain that trick me to feel better, it always was like that and if i stop takin my pills i feel like shit once again so, im not sure if im still fixeable or not...
 
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missingpeace

Arcanist
Feb 4, 2023
431
In the two years since I've suffered demonic attacks, these entities have never left but instead increased their frequency and type of assaults, I've gone to so many people with my problem, but nobody has helped. This entity has explicitly said it will be here till I die and it is adamant that it is 'me' and I am prevented from being 'me'. Spiritual warfare is impossible to fight, nothing religious works on these things. This powerful demon is intent on making my life a living hell and taking everything out on me. God really hasn't given me a choice, because this suffering is impossible to bear.
 
theboy

theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
3,411
I don't know
I want to think that I still have hope
 
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sleeping.tree

Member
Feb 3, 2023
5
It just seems like the only way out is to die. And I mean that.
 

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