emptymiku
bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru
- Mar 27, 2023
- 226
i've been in so much pain for the last few years, i can't do anything that i enjoy without being in pain. all i know is that i'm hypermobile.
it scares me to think that i have something that can't be fixed. and it probably is.
arthritis is possible, and that scares me even more. the idea that i have to live like this for the rest of my life when i'm so young, on top of everything wrong with me mentally, just convinces me that my body hates me as much as i hate myself.
i want to spit out at the universe telling it how much i want it to die along with me, but there's nobody there to listen.
it scares me to think that i have something that can't be fixed. and it probably is.
arthritis is possible, and that scares me even more. the idea that i have to live like this for the rest of my life when i'm so young, on top of everything wrong with me mentally, just convinces me that my body hates me as much as i hate myself.
i want to spit out at the universe telling it how much i want it to die along with me, but there's nobody there to listen.