How many of y'all are CERTAIN you can't be fixed?

[Hotsackage]

advanced ocd alzehimers. im totally fked

 

[Fulminare]

The things I've done in my life definitely made me realize that I'm beyond saving.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

100%.
There is nothing that can happen that can make my future days a net positive. There might be things that can make life slightly more bearable for a time, but nothing can save me.

There are aspects of my life that I know would satisfy other people on this forum. And yet I know that not even those advantages are enough to overcome my burden. That's part of how I know there's no rescuing my situation.

 

[wantittoendsoon]

Same here. Beyond fucked.


Terminal also?

 

[ImsooDone1N]

whether its can't be fixed or helped, or its cant be repaired. ruined, yes I don't think there is any hope for me.

 

[LastFlowers]

@wantittoendsoon Terminal illness? No.

Terminal in general? Yea.

(Sorry. I wasn't able to respond directly because your response was inside the quote.)

 

[Al_stargate]

I'm one million percent fucked. Nothing at all can help me. So just need to die but so far been too much of a coward.

 

[silence ends]

After turning 30 yo it have became more clear year by year that it wont go any better no matter what i'd try. 15 years of suicide ideation along trying to get better, actually went worse and end is near.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I don't really see myself as being the problem but rather life is instead. I don't need to be 'fixed' as my wish to die is simply a rational response to not seeing existing as being worth it, I despise existing and I see it as being preferable to free myself from this hellish world rather than risking even worse torture by continuing to stay here.

There is just nothing appealing about having to exist to me, and I view existence as being a burden and a mistake. Life is something terrible, tedious and unsatisfying that only leads to our inevitable deterioration from age, and simply just being here makes the thought of non existence sound so incredibly appealing. Under no circumstances could I ever wish to delay the inevitable, but sadly I'm still here.

 

[painofzed]

I'm not broken the system is, and I don't see it being fixed anytime soon. All I can hope for is that someday I get up the resolve to CTB.

 

[lost&lonely]

If I could be fixed I'd like to think that it could have been done already. However, after being like this for as long as I can remember and having tried too many variations of medications and 24 sessions of ECT, I think the likelihood of that ever happening is extremely thin.

 

[lili]

Yeah I feel this way. Fuck I just feel I can't be fixed at all. Just want to die so bad already.

 

[Henryk]

my therapist makes me believe that I still have a way out, but living with this pain for so long I really think there is no solution

 

[SamTam33]

Unless there's a procedure to fix DNA, then I can't be repaired.

Just like there's nothing that will make a pile of poop smell pleasant.

My brain is impaired. How I perceive the world and life in general - is in direct opposition to how life is "supposed" to be lived.

I'd need a couple of lobotomies in order to enter the "fixed" stage.

 

[punkarmadillo]

The fix is to CTB and leave a world I should never have appeared in. This will fix things for others also.

 

[TAW122]

I've realized this when I was young that life sucks and the (fleeting) moments of joy do not outweigh the burden of existence itself. I don't want to be fixed, I just want to enjoy what I can and when the time and circumstance is right, check out of existence.

 

[weightedrocks]

I've got severe gender dysphoria and know I will never live the life of a woman. Literally unfixable. Will always be a biological man.

 

[randy]

25 years of meds and therapy, don't think I'm fixable

 

[DukeDestroyer]

I'm beyond repair, people are the reason why I'm a shell of a person that once was. I'm not as intelligent as I once was. I'm stupid these days.

 

[GasMonkey]

me

 

[Sparr0w]

a lot of my mental health issues could/would be fixed if i got therapy (and a good therapist with any luck lol) and i can probably be a functioning member of society if i tried.

i dont really want to try, though. working for the rest of my life while watching horrible people abuse their power doesnt seem that appealling. similar to a lotta people here, fixing my issues wont change the world. if i do end up getting therapy and changing myself for the better and so forth... i wont be suprised if i end up dying of suicide anyways.

im just too lazy to either find the joy in a 9-5 job, or to move to some hippie commune where i gotta farm my own food or whatever the shit.

 

[Yamada]

Absolutely certain I cannot be "fixed" but I've also been debating if that's a problem or not. Existence fucking sucks but certain things can make that wane for a second or two. Maybe that's okay.

 

[ctbgurl]

I just feel like I'm already a lost cause, no matter who reaches out, I want death.

when you go through different medications frequently for years and none of them help your homocidal/suicidal thoughts, you start to wonder if you're ever gonna be normal. after a while i've come to terms with my brain and how i think. i'm aware it'll never change and i'm fucked forever

 

[tiredangelgirl]

about 92% certain. I have severe mental health issues but am high functioning so I don't think anyone takes it that seriously. I work a job, go to the gym, have an apartment, a cute dog, super healthy relationship with my boyfriend. all this but I still want to die. I am so grateful for everything I have, and I get the tiniest lil glimpse of joy every once in a while. my boyfriend keeps asking how he can fix how I feel and i tell him literally nothing - that's how mental health is. I keep hoping i'll have a break through with new meds or a therapist will get through to me and i'm EXTREMELY open and practically begging for any help but it isn't working for me. I also eat a low sugar vegan diet, don't drink alcohol, exercise, don't eat fast food and the only somewhat drug I consume now is thc edibles. I do the goddamn yoga, therapy and journaling and I still want to die

 

[pyroxenic]

I think im capable of change for better, but its been SO long of this and it feels like things will always be this way... so im mostly sure i cant be fixed and that gives me peace tbh.

 

[Flameboyant]

I first wanted to die when i was 10 and the reason was i knew Id be an always failure for eternity. I wasnt wrong. Ive been to so many doctors and therapists but nothing has changed. Sure i had times that were great, but eventually something terrible happens and its back to 1. I just want to be free and death gives me that.

 

[BornHated]

I first wanted to die when i was 10 and the reason was i knew Id be an always failure for eternity. I wasnt wrong. Ive been to so many doctors and therapists but nothing has changed. Sure i had times that were great, but eventually something terrible happens and its back to 1. I just want to be free and death gives me that.

Honestly same- At 10 I took some stock in what was expected of me, both from society and from my parents and I realized... I wasn't going to do well in adulthood, somehow, lol. I lack my father's resilience and my mother's social cunning/natural evil to be able to do what's needed to survive. Not worth it. I don't have the energy for continued functional adult life

 

[AnxietyHangover]

I could be fixed, only that it seems highly unlikely. Because of these meds I feel less suicidal, but the thought is always there in the back of my mind. Would need some things to change for that thought to disappear but it all seems so far out of reach, feels just hopeless.

 

[HadItAll]

Me

 

[Kta1994]

I cant deal with the amount of pain anymore, i used to love life now i just want this suffering to stop