How.many failed attempts have you had

[Deleted member 1768]

Once.

 

[John Smith]

Same boat as you, can't get hanging down. But I just keep telling myself that it only takes one success

Full suspension or partial? Why can't you get it down?

 

[John Smith]

Too many to calculate. I'm frequently suicidal. CO in tent was closest, I regret calling for help. Shoelaces around neck I regret cutting off. Having helium tank in flat, regret giving away. Lots of od's that was just stupid.

What was co in the tent like? How close did you get?

 

[BridgeJumper]

About 26 (bridge jumping, massive overdoses, hanging, partial hanging, sitting on train tracks, sticking forks in electrical outlets, trying to jump in front of cars many many many)

I want to die but Im a pussy

 

[k75]

Unless we're counting the time I "tried" to OD on asprin in a fit of pre-teen angst, none.

This is not a cry for help, so I only intend to do this once and do it right.

 

[John Smith]

It was painful. I probably messed up the knot and didn't black out at all. The only thing I got was a light pain in the neck and a red face for almost a week. I had to tell everybody it was some kind of allergic reaction

How long did you hang there for and what ligature did you use?

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I am a perfectionist... first one will be the last one.

Same. I don't forgive mistakes. I can't be fixed. And what do you do with something that can't be fixed? You throw it away. And that's what I'm going to do with myself.

 

[Emily123]

Zero . My first attempt will be the last one

 

[Carina]

I've had 15+... but you know, I was trying to make it look accidental, so it would be so doubtful my parents (started as teenager) would've believed it was an accident, and not suicide. They were practically destined to fail.

 

[IRIYAMA]

2 serious attempts, the third not so serious...

 

[BPD Barbie]

Had 2 previous overdoses, first at 14, and one jumping attempt. But both times I overdosed I didn't understand that medication wasn't the most lethal way and for jumping, the police pulled me off the edge.

 

[chris8000]

1, over 10 years ago, but it was when my girlfriend broke up with me and I was not that serious deep down. It was a very temporary thing I was going through and I realised was being a fucking idiot in hindsight.

 

[56709]

I've had 4 serious attempts total but dozens of half-assed 'gestures'.

I attempted fatal overdose twice, at the ages of ten and eleven... 48 diphenhydramine 25mg, then 24 prescription sleeping pills(my memory is unclear on the specifics TBH). It didn't occur to me at that age to research lethal doses or mechanisms of action before attempting.

I didn't get proper treatment the first time. I took the dose while home alone and was discovered in a delirious psychotic state. I was driven to the hospital but they failed to detect the cause and hours had passed since ingestion.

The second time I wasn't even taken to the hospital. I took the dose before sleeping and simply woke up, vomited an acidic reddish brown substance(probably had stomach bleeding) and told my mom I was sick. I think she knew the truth but didn't get me treatment. I suffered confusion and memory loss for the rest of the day...

I suffered lasting mental deficits as a result of attempting poorly and not getting proper treatment, I most certainly damaged my brain.

I started cutting my wrists and arms with razor blades at age 11 as well, my memory is unclear on my rationale for it.
I didn't do it with a well-defined goal of suicide despite having seen it portrayed as a viable method.

I tried to kill myself at 14 with a canister of nitrogen but I was too impulsive and backed out at the last second just as I was losing consciousness.

 

[CyanideSoup]

8 or 9 attempts with more and more painkillers until I finally came to terms with it not working and being way too long winded and painful. 1 SN attempt but was found. 1 hanging attempt but it was rushed, it hurt and I panicked and stopped. Just waiting for the right time for SN again.

 

[mathieu]

I had maybe 5 attempts. Some I chickened out and mum called ambulance, some I knew wouldn't work like Valium ODs etc. I believe all the attempts I made were during my teenage years.

 

[TearyEyedQueen]

One. I tried to overdose at 16 but got scared and went to an ambulance. Tbh back then I didn't know anything about meds so I took random pills out of a cabinet and mixed them together because that's what I saw on TV (I had the mentality of a toddler don't ask).
It went about as well as you'd expect-nothing happened. Turns out I didn't even need the ambulance.

 

[Flume]

8 or 9 attempts with more and more painkillers until I finally came to terms with it not working and being way too long winded and painful. 1 SN attempt but was found. 1 hanging attempt but it was rushed, it hurt and I panicked and stopped. Just waiting for the right time for SN again.

Jesus christ man I hope you are doing ok

 

[Freedom Believer]

One but it was really a test run with positioning of the bags for the "night-night method". Cornhole bags feel awkward so I'm going to find something else to use.

 

[RealLifeTamagotchi]

Only once by taking 6000mg of caffeine pills...terrible choice. Vomited for a very long time, ended up with acidosis and hypokalemia but nothing more. After a brief stay in ICU I could leave the hosiptal without seeing a psychiatrist because I told everyone it was an 'accident'...and they believed me. What a surprise.