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Andro_USYD

Andro_USYD

Artificially happy on medicine
Jul 1, 2023
136
Apathetic and bored like usual. I'm pretty much emotionless because of the antidepressants I take, it's hell but it's better than depression.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
So tired I'm a little bit delusional. Keep thinking about all those cartoons I watched as a kid eh Jen the endless attempts by the coyote to kill the roadrunner and I keep wishing I could walk into one of those but surprise coyote by making it work for a change.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,211
I'm feeling pretty insignificant and insecure but what else is new?
 
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JaJu

JaJu

Member
Apr 3, 2024
98
Exhausted. Confused. Annoyed. Doomed. Hopeless.
 
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lemonbunny

lemonbunny

daydreaming the pain away ☆.。.:*・°
Sep 9, 2023
243
completely hopeless
 
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gogoprince

gogoprince

Member
Dec 19, 2021
61
Complicated. I feel grateful for being on this new path of recovery for my sex/porn addiction and hearing the stories of people who have hurt like I have has helped me feel much more connected in general. However, those stories and my own bring up very difficult and heavy emotions. I feel so sad for the child I was, who felt that love was something so conditional and that I would only deserve if I was a particular kind of person. It's heartening to know and accept that I need and deserve love no matter what I've done wrong, but I think I'm going to have to spend some time grieving for that little girl before I can let all of her pain go and become the woman I was meant to be.
 
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moshimoshi

Apr 6, 2024
749
Like shit
Also after isolating so long I find that it's VERY hard for me to talk In person to people. I can't really form sentences very well, I take long awkward pauses and carrying out conversations is like climbing Mount Everest
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Another night of disturbing dreams. Genuinely prefer insomnia. At least I get to read a disturbing book that's not based on people or places I know IRL. Yet another headache. Tired. Cuts really sore with stabbing pains.
 
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moshimoshi

Apr 6, 2024
749
Frustrated and sad and scared
Another night of disturbing dreams. Genuinely prefer insomnia. At least I get to read a disturbing book that's not based on people or places I know IRL. Yet another headache. Tired. Cuts really sore with stabbing pains.
I hate disturbing dreams especially when they leave you feeling really weird/bad for a while after waking up, I've been having them too. I hope they go away soon ash 💚
 
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JaJu

JaJu

Member
Apr 3, 2024
98
Like shit
Also after isolating so long I find that it's VERY hard for me to talk In person to people. I can't really form sentences very well, I take long awkward pauses and carrying out conversations is like climbing Mount Everest
This is me. Even though I've been talking to so many people at work every day for 2 months (after several years of isolation), I'm still stuttering and stumbling over my own words so much that people just stare at me blankly as if they're thinking, what's wrong with that guy?

Good news is that it seems to get better little by little the more I speak with people. Conversations slowly become more natural and flowing. It isn't easy but it's a tiny bit of hope. :heart:
 
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moshimoshi

Apr 6, 2024
749
This is me. Even though I've been talking to so many people at work every day for 2 months (after several years of isolation), I'm still stuttering and stumbling over my own words so much that people just stare at me blankly as if they're thinking, what's wrong with that guy?

Good news is that it seems to get better little by little the more I speak with people. Conversations slowly become more natural and flowing. It isn't easy but it's a tiny bit of hope. :heart:
it takes an insane amount of courage to start talking to people a lot after years of isolation, so I'm proud of you for getting as far as you have~ I can relate so much with the stuttering and stumbling it sucks a lot. That does give me a tiny bit of hope what you said about it slowly getting better. I hope it keeps getting better for you 💙 Human communication can be so difficult sometimes it's so strange
 
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JaJu

JaJu

Member
Apr 3, 2024
98
it takes an insane amount of courage to start talking to people a lot after years of isolation, so I'm proud of you for getting as far as you have~ I can relate so much with the stuttering and stumbling it sucks a lot. That does give me a tiny bit of hope what you said about it slowly getting better. I hope it keeps getting better for you 💙
Thanks so much, soulkitty, and I sincerely hope it will get better for you too!
Human communication can be so difficult sometimes it's so strange
I totally agree.

🤗
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Just remembered that my latest binge pushed me over the limit and my trousers split right over the arse last night. So this morning I'll have to shave my legs and wear shorts as they're the only things baggy enough to contain the flubber. So, yeah, mostly feeling that. Cherry on the proverbial poisoned cake that I obviously stuffed into my fat face without thinking.
 
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lovedread

lovedread

hell is other people
Jan 2, 2020
213
embarrassed sad humiliated etc...excited to ctb tbh like there really is nothing worth this anymore. so glad and excited to be dead and just forget about this whole horrible ass trial.
 
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moshimoshi

Apr 6, 2024
749
So exhausted and worn out. Also kind of empty and numb
 
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HereTomorrow

HereTomorrow

Eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
565
I've been struggling with not feeling any kind of happiness but not sad. Not super overwhelmed but almost in a constant dissociative state for two days. I'm not sure if I can continue living this time, it's strong. I'm sure I will however. I've survived everything else.

Also absolutely need a massive hug right now. Not those virtual hugs, sorry guys.
 
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damienlerone03

damienlerone03

reject humanity, return to monke
May 5, 2024
1,048
I feel like the emotions of that one song from Antent, hope to see you again
 
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trashhologram

trashhologram

⚰ Baby, let me decompose ⚰
Dec 15, 2023
363
Pissed off and tired.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Didn't sleep well but I think I'd be okish despite that, only the dog has got one her dodgy bellies again as someone gave her some a whole load of treats yesterday, without asking me if it would be alright. One or two, sure. Ah well. Another sofa day and attempting to clean diarrhea off gravel, it is.
 
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slipkn0t

slipkn0t

Member
Mar 28, 2024
6
I feel quite calm today. Still tired and tired of life, but just calmly getting on.
 
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AdamOndiAhman

AdamOndiAhman

dreaming on kolob
Feb 8, 2024
78
stupid and foolish. i had so many chances to not end up how i am now but in my blind arrogance and pride i refused them all. i feel like such a pitiful mess.
 
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Redleaf1992

Redleaf1992

Just leave us the f*ck alone!
Feb 3, 2024
218
After feeling really depressed last week and hyper/racing thoughts over the weekend, I suddenly feel good. Even have interest in hobbies again.

Trying to hold onto the feeling and not let my mind self sabotage, and it become another mood swing.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Got another headache developing but I can't stay in bed much longer as Mr DIY is gearing up for another day with the heavy duty power tools outside and it's too warm with the window shut.
 
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Wei yu

Member
Mar 21, 2024
24
I have rhinitis in my nose and my turbinates are enlarged, which makes it difficult for me to breathe. I usually only breathe through my mouth. I don't have money to go to the hospital, and my family won't give me money. I don't want to work to earn money to treat my nose. It's too bad. My life is already over. My eyes have high astigmatism and I cannot continue my studies, so I can only work at the bottom level.
 
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Silent_cries

Silent_cries

Too many flashbacks, can't take it anymore! Help!
Aug 10, 2021
1,434
Tire d, just really tire d. Having iss ue s with my sleep and I am un able to get an appointment with my gp bc he is cons tantly si ck so I am un able to get sleeping pill s.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Got caught up in a whole series of events and now I'm sitting out in the garden after nearly collapsing because I forgot about the anaemia and decided to work off the headache with some gardening. I didn't even lift anything heavier than a few handfuls of compost, one at a time rather than by the bag or bucket FFS. Good news is the dog seems better and is especially happy now I'm sitting in my camping chair under the tree as she gets to sniff all the smells from the comfort of my lap 🙄
 
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moshimoshi

Apr 6, 2024
749
Feeling good :) the dopamine gods finally decided to bless me for once 💀
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Feeling good :) the dopamine gods finally decided to bless me for once 💀
🥳
I carried on in the garden, sowed some seeds in the shady areas (I bought them and a load of planters and bulbs back in the autumn before I knew I was going to plunge back into crisis or I wouldn't have bothered), watered all the pots out back, had lots of rest throughout, now waiting for my washing to finish so I can hang it up to dry overnight and then collapse into bed 😴😴😴

I am exhausted and wobbly and seeing double and while I was extremely anxious about tomorrow, now I am not entirely sure I care.
 
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damienlerone03

damienlerone03

reject humanity, return to monke
May 5, 2024
1,048
tired because of the gym but you gotta do what you gotta do to get them gains fr fr
Gains Sbuniv GIF by Southwest Baptist University
 
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terra.nuvo

terra.nuvo

Student
Feb 15, 2024
176
Like a loser and a terrible person
 
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