how do you feel right now? don’t even think about it, just type.

[Sprite_Geist]

I am feeling angry and trapped. Though I cannot explain the reasons why I am feeling this way which is frustrating. Even if I could explain them I do not have anyone in the real world to talk to.

 

[dearlydeparted44]

I feel relieved knowing that I'm finally going to be gone this week.

 

[wilting_flower]

Restless. I can't decide on a date but I have the method. and sometimes I wonder if ctb is really what I want. I know that life is likely never going to be what I want it to be and that I'll be just surviving, numbing, and succumbing to some kind of addiction forever. that's what makes me want to exit. I wonder if it's worth the little moments of genuine happiness I get every now and then.

Then there's the fact that the world is objectively fucked. I'm also just scared that maybe if I die I will come back as someone else or repeat my life all over again. makes me wish I'd just get it done and over with.

 

[AuraByte]

Lost.

 

[Reywashere]

I feel excited yet so nervous and scared. I don't know what tne future holds and I hate not knowing that.

 

[RadioRamen]

I'm tired of being constantly criticized, constantly being put down and complaints against every little action I do regardless of what it is , I'm stuck in a marriage I feel I'm the only one trying to still make work and I'm only met with hostility and made to feel like a guest in my own home , to be made to feel like a pathetic nuisance to her no matter what I do , the pain of watching someone who was in love with you completely fall out of it and have nothing but disdain for you . I'm tired I'm exhausted and I have gone through a very long year where I feel like nothing I can do will make me feel happy again .

 

[Hime]

Disassociated. I feel stuck at a crossroads, where neither option of life or death makes me feel anything anymore. My psychiatrist said I'm "ambivalent towards life", which I think fits well.

I wonder when or if this hollow feeling will go away. I've just been so confused as of late, I was so certain about ctb for years, and now I feel like I'm chained up in my own mind - unable to take a step in any direction.

There are times where these extreme urges come, but I've managed to suppress them so far with benzos + sleep. Although it makes me wonder, am I trying to convince myself to live a life I don't want? Am I delaying the inevitable? Or what am I exactly doing?..

Honestly, I think the only thing keeping me alive at this point is my cat. I was a short moment away from passing earlier this year, but stopped when I realized I wanted to play with her instead. She's my everything.

 

[hmnow]

Feeling ready mentally for my last journey

 

[Paraskas]

i feel empty and numb. i feel lost. i don't think i'm doing anything correctly, but i'm so drained at this point i don't really fucking care.

i feel like if my depressed best friend attempts again and successfully does it then I'll end up joining him

 

[snailfish3000]

empty and extremely lonely

 

[Aquinas]

Directionless and a little lonely