how do you feel right now? don’t even think about it, just type.

[Alltheywanted]

Confused, I don't even know what I want. I always wished for love but atp I think I gave up. It makes me feel empty and sad.

 

[pineapplecheeseburg]

drunk and empty

 

[vapid]

absolutely horrible. the worst i have felt in a long time. and not even from a depression standpoint, just in general. i just feel like an idiot and like a bitch. i just got really mad and stormed out of the room cursing at my mom and brother because of an uno game and i am really embarrassed. i wish that i wasn't the way i am and i feel crazy desperate for something, anything, to make it go away. i am fucked up in some really big ways but pretty much all the problems in my life are my own fault.

i guess the main thing i'm feeling is an overwhelming amount of self hatred.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Asteroid. Earth. Now.

 

[wishicouldctb]

I feel furious. I'm mad at myself because all I do is screw everything up. I'm mad at the world because I don't want to be in it. I feel hopeless because I can't leave but I can't go on living like this. I feel literally nothing put pain. I feel no happiness. Every time I laugh or smile I just think about how there's a million things wrong with me and my life and how any brief moment feigning happiness is just me lying to myself and the world. I feel like every breathe is hurting me more and more. I feel like I am nothing. I can't even describe the hurt I feel and the pain I'm in. Every night I pray to anyone listening to please just kill me. I have prayed like this numerous night for over a decade and my prayers are never answered. My life feels like a sick joke and I'm the punchline.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Wide awake..again

 

[thealteredmind]

one of my benzo symptoms is annoying me. apart from that... I just feel like always... meh, empty, bored, hollow, in a life without any color.
depressed.

 

[aWeeBitTired]

I want to kill myself, there is no escape from the longevity and innateness of suffering

 

[RegretedFeeling]

I sat inside a stared at a wall all day, I kinda want to buy a rope and go for a hike, just wing it!

I sat inside a stared at a wall all day, I kinda want to buy a rope and go for a hike, just wing it!

I've had multiple people in my family do it. I should be able to also,

 

[grungy自殺]

detached and confused

No idea what i'm doing anymore...

Confused, I don't even know what I want. I always wished for love but atp I think I gave up. It makes me feel empty and sad.

I feel that


Also i like your pinkerton pfp

 

[F@#$]

Pissed the fuck off.

 

[Luckiest7]

Even if they very clearly don't want me to die. Theyre annoyed with me, i just know it

 

[homesoon.]

I wish I didn't work tomorrow so I could be drunk enough to self-harm and build up the courage to cbt w/o guilt. At least in the moment.

 

[watchdog]

I feel disgusting and ashamed. I'm also sad.

 

[Abyssal]

Hopeless

 

[alltoomuch2]

empty, like crying, wary of the world, accepting that it is everyone except mental health workers against me. Like there is something wrong with me that makes everyone want to hurt me and take advantage. Going through the motions but I don't know why. Lost. That everyone wants me to be different and don't like the real me. Hurt, angry, lost, sad, scared, anxious, dying inside, worthless, pointless, can't see a future.

I feel furious. I'm mad at myself because all I do is screw everything up. I'm mad at the world because I don't want to be in it. I feel hopeless because I can't leave but I can't go on living like this. I feel literally nothing put pain. I feel no happiness. Every time I laugh or smile I just think about how there's a million things wrong with me and my life and how any brief moment feigning happiness is just me lying to myself and the world. I feel like every breathe is hurting me more and more. I feel like I am nothing. I can't even describe the hurt I feel and the pain I'm in. Every night I pray to anyone listening to please just kill me. I have prayed like this numerous night for over a decade and my prayers are never answered. My life feels like a sick joke and I'm the punchline.

This^^^^^^

 

[Catch-22]

Very sick like I'm dying.. unfortunately I'm not at this moment it just feels like it. Decades of physical and mental torture

 

[gorexzxz]

Bad.

 

[lawlietsph]

I am sick. My head and my throat hurts and I am sooooooooo tired. You know, the kind of tiredness that cannot be cured by sleep. I feel incredibly scared and anxious because of my financial situation.
I am 28 years old, achieved NOTHING, wasted my youth to mental illness. I love to be alone, but now I just feel absolutely isolated and lonely. I want to kill my body - this body, that always letting me down. I am disgusted about my face. I am fat and I cannot stop eating chocolate, as it has became like a drug to me. Tired, tired, so so so tired. Not a single day without feeling absolutely disgusting and wanting to die. The last time I didn't wanted to die was when I was 11 or something.
I really wish to get some kind of sickness and just let me sleep and die alone and just leave me to rot in the silence.

 

[marchshift]

I feel angry.

 

[4everDone]

I want to sleep for ever

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Like the scare crow from the Wizard of Oz. The fat version

 

[wilsonio]

[BGCOLOR=rgba(0, 0, 0, 0)]A ton of anxiety. Lonely, depressed. I feel like there's just not really a point of going on anymore. [/BGCOLOR]

 

[melancholymallory03]

Empty and heartbroken pathetic and disgusting, sad , desperate, piece of shit human being ,wanna disappear, hopeful about ctb

 

[mehdone]

Sad.
A weird mix of determination, yet numb and ready to give up if I didn't have to pull the trigger.
Tired, but I don't want to die anymore- but I have wanted to for so long, that is my default- self destruction, death, suicide- It is hard to be anything else when that is all I've known.
Hope can be so fleeting.
But lately, so can my desire for death. That's new to me.
Confused.
Exhausted.
Hopeful.
Dread.
I'm a bit all mixed up, and have been for a while now.

I wish life could just be fucking easy.

 

[wastingpotential]

so overwhelmed even though i'm someone who never leaves my room and can't confront anything no matter how much they try. this anxiety appears in my chest at night that yells im not doing enough or im not being productive and everything i do is a waste of time but i dont know exactly what to fucking do.

i'm tired and i can't remember the last time I properly slept and i miss so many things and people that i know wouldn't even turn their heads if they heard i'm finally dead, because they get to move on in life and nothing affected them and life didn't bruise them as it did me. they hurt me so much and i still miss them. i miss so many things and it doesn't make sense for me to when all i think about is how i shouldn't even be alive anymore. whats the point at all

 

[4am]

there's already a thread with the exact same title in offtopic section. why duplicate it? maybe fc is unironically right about this forum

 

[uncat_]

Calm but almost too calm, and also not calm at all. Almost as if I've given up? Which I have. I've been so suicidal these past few weeks, more intense than I've ever felt before. More willing to go through with something and succeed. But I can't. I'm angry and sad, but I have to hide those emotions from myself not to do anything stupid.

I have too many people who love me and too many people who want me to stay. The last thing I want to do is hurt those people. I'm trying to fill my days with little things that'll make me enjoy life a little bit more, but that means I'm ignoring my schoolwork.

I'm just so overwhelmed with emotions that I have to hide. I don't want to fucking do this anymore, but I have to.

Everything I do is for other people. Why can't they accept that I just want peace? Peace from myself.

 

[mehdone]

Calm but almost too calm, and also not calm at all. Almost as if I've given up? Which I have. I've been so suicidal these past few weeks, more intense than I've ever felt before. More willing to go through with something and succeed. But I can't. I'm angry and sad, but I have to hide those emotions from myself not to do anything stupid.

I have too many people who love me and too many people who want me to stay. The last thing I want to do is hurt those people. I'm trying to fill my days with little things that'll make me enjoy life a little bit more, but that means I'm ignoring my schoolwork.

I'm just so overwhelmed with emotions that I have to hide. I don't want to fucking do this anymore, but I have to.

Everything I do is for other people. Why can't they accept that I just want peace? Peace from myself.

I'm familiar with that calm. It is dangerous.

 

[Vault Dweller]

I'm experiencing a strong urge to quit. My life has felt like a constant struggle from the beginning, and I can't seem to get a break. Sometimes I wonder if the universe is testing me or if it's just against me.