how do you feel right now? don’t even think about it, just type.

[thedevilwithin]

i feel empty and numb. i feel lost. i don't think i'm doing anything correctly, but i'm so drained at this point i don't really fucking care.

 

[rozeske]

Very very anxious. I miss the numbness I had a couple months back.

 

[Myers]

Extremely angry, sad , lonely, frustrated, I'm in pain ,I just want a hug, I'm scared.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Feeling confused as to why this thread exists when one with an identical name has been around for awhile already. Is it just because that one is on off topic?

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

Revising traumatizing things, revising terrible things I've done, They seem like they happened to someone else, though. Thinking of drinking my SN on the patio tomorrow but I have to wake up early enough to do it. Constantly telling myself I'm a very cool person despite everything that's happened to me or what I've done. Dealing with health issues, trying to get them away. Can't actually talk about it out of fear it manifests more in my body.

Having to constantly hold myself back out of fear someone, some person is going to take offense to what I say because this happens every single time. Can't speak my mind without someone getting mad or complaining about it. Afraid of saying the wrong thing. Afraid of getting yelled at, trying not to get yelled at.

 

[Dayrain]

There is a megathread with the exact same title.

 

[iloverachel]

alone, awful, anxious, sad, hopeless, suicidal, depressed, angry, miserable, frustrated, bored. in mental agony

 

[skreewie]

I can't feel, just dull and empty.

 

[Meteora]

i feel empty and numb. i feel lost. i don't think i'm doing anything correctly, but i'm so drained at this point i don't really fucking care.

I relate.....

Very very anxious. I miss the numbness I had a couple months back.

Understand very well.....

Extremely angry, sad , lonely, frustrated, I'm in pain ,I just want a hug, I'm scared.

 

[thedevilwithin]

Feeling confused as to why this thread exists when one with an identical name has been around for awhile already. Is it just because that one is on off topic?

no real reason. this is the only place i express myself without holding back and id like to engage in conversations with others who feel the same as me.

There is a megathread with the exact same title.

why is that important at all?

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

no real reason. this is the only place i express myself without holding back and id like to engage in conversations with others who feel the same as me.

Why not just use that thread then?

 

[Meteora]

@thedevilwithin I liked this thread from the start but at some point just couldn't find it anymore for days. That's why I started a similar one, because I like it, too to express the current state.

 

[thedevilwithin]

Why not just use that thread then?

i have.

 

[Meteora]

Why not just use that thread then?

What is your point exactely?????

alone, awful, anxious, sad, hopeless, suicidal, depressed, angry, miserable, frustrated, bored. in mental agony

I relate to this, too.

 

[lifeispain0216]

desperate for a way out. i feel empty and tired of feeling the way i always do. nothing feels fulfilling and i just want to go.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

I feel empty. Like if you slice me open, you'll find nothing there. Just black emptiness. I go through life mechanically, and it's like every emotion I feel is fake. Like they're really just at the surface. Beneath, there's nothing. It's weird. I know what to feel but I don't feel it. I'm...

www.sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[oofuf]

I feel like I'm sinking in an ocean. it keeps getting colder and darker.

 

[bookgirl]

I want to leave this world

 

[arnxxx]

Im beyond desperate to recover. Just cycled with my mom and I was in tears under way because I feel like this. Every day I feel like this and it just won't stop. What did I do to deserve this??? I'm just a regular guy getting destroyed by his own feelings.

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

Anxious, tired, and desperate. Got foggy brain.

 

[AkaRed]

So, so fucking alone. I am going to die alone. I have nothing. Im alone. Im going to die alone. Im literally going to fucking die by myself with nobody and nothing. Im going to die alone.

<3

 

[BlendedHeart]

I'm never enough. My efforts are worthless.

 

[AnonymousL]

Im writing without reading the comments of others to not let me get influenced by them.

I can't explain how I feel. I feel numb but some part of me feels angry another part feels sad, an excruciating pain. Like I'm screaming but nobody can hear me and it never stops.

i feel like I want to die so badly but at the same time I'm so scared for the process and the fact that we do not know what happens after death since nobody ever came back from the permanent death to tell us.

I feel trapped.
I feel unsure. I feel like I'll never heal. Like I'll never be good enough.

It's hard to put my feelings into words. I just can't find the right ones to express it like how I exactly feel. I don't think I'll ever be able to do so.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm in so much pain and suffering. I feel shitty and trapped

 

[thedevilwithin]

Im writing without reading the comments of others to not let me get influenced by them.

I can't explain how I feel. I feel numb but some part of me feels angry another part feels sad, an excruciating pain. Like I'm screaming but nobody can hear me and it never stops.

i feel like I want to die so badly but at the same time I'm so scared for the process and the fact that we do not know what happens after death since nobody ever came back from the permanent death to tell us.

I feel trapped.
I feel unsure. I feel like I'll never heal. Like I'll never be good enough.

It's hard to put my feelings into words. I just can't find the right ones to express it like how I exactly feel. I don't think I'll ever be able to do so.

i cant begin to explain how much i relate to your words. it's so hard. i feel so much guilt for the way i feel. i wish this would end..

 

[AnonymousL]

i cant begin to explain how much i relate to your words. it's so hard. i feel so much guilt for the way i feel. i wish this would end..

Oh yes.. to look people you love and people that love you in the eye knowing that you want to end this existence is causing an awful guilt every single day.

I know I will cause them so much pain but existing is causing me too much pain to handle it.

 

[xinino]

Regret due to my horrible sadistic love fantasies, I feel like a monster this morning. I need to reassess myself.

 

[astrichaoz]

I don't know. Numb or empty I guess?? It's been like this for maybe a month now I wanna say. I don't like it. It stresses me out. This probably sounds crazy but I prefer the intense emotions I usually feel than this numbness.

 

[Time4Peace]

"Current temperature has broken the record high for Apr. 17"

Let the skyfall!

 

[justcallmeJ]

Very nervous.. but also a bit excited? Idk i just feel weird because my attempt is tomorrow