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darksouls

darksouls

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May 10, 2025
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MDD is hell, only people in real life are even worse
 
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impendingdooom

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Jan 8, 2026
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i feel depleted. hopeless, numb.
 
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hangingclothes

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Oct 26, 2025
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i wish to be incapable of thinking and feeling negatively.
 
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Gruzum

Gruzum

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May 10, 2025
3
how do i feel? suicidal.. duhh
 
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cleanandpretty

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Dec 19, 2025
6
I feel horrible!! Physically and mentally. I vaped once today after not doing so for 5 days and all of a sudden I can barely breathe I have never wanted to die more
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,609
Down in the dumps.
 
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ToANewWorld

Rarity
Apr 16, 2025
94
Annoyed. I can't believe I am gonna have to go so soon. My life clipped when I haven't lived yet.

Was doing better for a while. Got hopeful I could turn this around. But whether I am here next year or not will come down to a coin flip. Life is horrifying sometimes.
 
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CutToRelease

CutToRelease

It helps remind me I'm still here
Dec 31, 2024
136
I hate myself. All my effort I put into my health dosnt even work it still gets worse. I felt better when I was doing bothing for my health. I wanna cut so bad. But my arm aches so much from cutting relay bad for the last 2 days in a row. But I still want to.
 
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CookedRamen

Don't Look Down
Jun 10, 2024
5
I'm just tired. Tired of this. Everything. All of it.
 
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JustBe

JustBe

Member
Jan 12, 2026
6
Void. Useless. Lonely. Sick.
Every day is a battle against myself with the rehearsed suicidal thoughts.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,522
In the kitchen at 4am crying while boiling pasta good times 🙃

At least I can shovel carbs and cheese into my facehole now, surely that will stop me feeling broken.
 
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persepexa

persepexa

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Feb 7, 2025
352
I feel so filled with guilt and shame I can hardly look at myself. This isn't how my life was supposed to be. This isn't where I was supposed to be. I should be somewhere totally different, safe, loved, stable. I just want to go back and change everything. I don't want to be this person any more. I just want it all to end and for me to disappear.
 
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Unlucky777

Unlucky777

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Dec 10, 2025
315
I really don't want to be here anymore but I'm sticking around until I figure out how to make CTBing work and not feeling guilty for leaving my family behind. Especially since my dad just died a month ago. I hate existence. I told my friend about my CTB thoughts a few weeks ago and he keeps telling me how life is a gift. Life can be but it can also be a curse
 
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assassinlord82

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Nov 12, 2024
11
I feel so useless and unwanted
 
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darksouls

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May 10, 2025
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worried because of the You Tube video
 
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wofnsdf

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Nov 17, 2025
2
very sad and just feel empty. i just want a hug and to cry
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
62
so sad and lonely and miserable

i dont have much energey to interact with most people irl and just spend as much time as i can alone in my room

when i was drunk a few days ago i texted my friend and asked him to hangout i dont even know if i would have the energy to but it is making me so sad that he still hasn't responded to the text. it seems like most people talk to me less and less and even people who i used to be close with dont seem to want to hang out with me. theres less and less people that reach out to me and maybe thats good because i want to be alone but it also makes me really really sad. why dont they like me anymore.
 
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GhostedToast

GhostedToast

Wants to disappear
Sep 25, 2018
147
I watched my neighbours son who was about twice my age die on my birthday in october, and i ended up having a nose bleed earlier that led to me having kinda flashes of his face in my mind and been stuck thinking about it for atleast the past 12 hours so i want to throw up and scream but wont vent to any of my friends or reach out so i dont bother them
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
953
Overwhelmed and ready to go. On one hand I don't want to let those tormenting me "win," on the other it would always be someone with how weak I am. I need to FSH when I get home tonight. This can't go on.
 
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aceless_spade

aceless_spade

Accepting Reality
Sep 26, 2024
19
For the time being pretty neutral! I'll take it
 
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Arvayn

Arvayn

Face the end.
Nov 11, 2025
162
I feel introspective and yet somewhat uncertain over the future. It feels slightly exciting, yet at the same time, strangely disillusioning.
 
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Cyc

It's my fight.
Jan 22, 2026
49
Numb, like there's a massive hole inside of me
 
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sweetdrowning

living ghost
Jan 2, 2026
81
scared but turning into numb, i feel numb most of the time but start to cry whenever i realize i need to be gone soon. i wish i was born different, i wish i could know that i could restart in some dimension that i am who i feel i am, i wish i wish so many things
 
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SchizoPolyGymnast

Warlock
May 28, 2024
782
I heard on the news that ICE is coming to my city. Send help?
 
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Good night

Good night

Member
Jan 18, 2026
10
The truth is that I feel terrible right now. I feel very lonely, as if everyone agreed to ignore me at the same time—it's painful. Feeling a little better and then feeling so bad again... it's like an endless loop that never ends. And I think, "How long can I take this?" I wish I knew. I'd like to just disappear from everyone's minds, be alone forever, because that's what I'll be: alone.
 
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