How could I legally purchase a firearm under my circumstances?

[hereiamagain]

As of now, the only way I can imagine myself CTB is with a firearm, but even as an American, it seems highly unlikely for me to be able to purchase. For one, since I'm moving to New York from New Jersey, I'm sure I don't need to elaborate much that getting a permit is far more difficult in that state. Yet, regardless of how strict it is per state, any background check on me would almost surely reveal my troubled mental health track record.

I've been admitted to a hospital four times pertaining to CTB; people have called the police on me when I told them I was planning to CTB, I admitted myself to the ER for it once (easily one of the dumbest mistakes I ever made), and the police escorted me when I was caught flirting with disaster over the rails of a bridge. Ask anyone in my family, a handful of friends, my therapist, or even some of my former coworkers, and they'll testify that I should never come anywhere near a firearm. My psychiatric history would also probably reveal this to an extent.

There's no way any of this could pass an application. All that to say, is that all there is to it then? I definitely have no chance of (legally) buying one as a result of all this? I wanted to double check if there truly could be some way around it, but I wouldn't be surprised if the answer is probably just "no."

If so, then I'm all out of ideas on how to get access to one.

 

[whywere]

I live in the Midwest, and this is the Federal law, NOT state but Federal on this. Law is from 1968, Gun Control Act of 1968, individuals with mental health histories are prohibited from purchasing firearms.

This is people who have been involuntarily committed to a mental health facility. HOWEVER, if it is voluntary alone that does not trigger a federal arms ban. BUT each state has their own laws, as the federal ban is the floor and then each state can add their own laws on top of the federal ban.

If it was me, I would have someone reach out to the state general attorney's office in the state that one lives in to find out the complete picture.

Walter,

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

The answer seems crystal clear. Even if you were never held involuntarily, you'd still need reference letters to get the permit. From what you said above, it sounds like this would be an impossibility.
When I decided I wanted to CTB, I felt the same way you feel now. A firearm was the only method that interested me. Then, after spending time on this site & reading about all the viable methods on the suicide resource compilation megathread, I changed my mind. I lost all interest in guns and I now have two other reliable methods. You can try to go the non-legal route to find a gun, or you can just find another method. I wish you luck either way.