I Wish I Could See My Funeral

[body_snatcher]

It sucks I'll never get to see people react to my death, or talk about my life. I think that's what drew me so much to CTB when I was a kid, was this urge to force people to contemplate my life and how they treated me. I'll never get to watch people cry over my death. It really bothers me. It's not that I want to make people suffer, I just want to know their deepest feelings about me and I'll probably never know because they probably won't reveal them until it's too late. I hope I don't sound too selfish.

 

[scary]

No, that's a normal feeling when you're going through something like suicidal ideation. Wanting to be seen and having people care about you is just what most people experience, we're a social species after all. I don't think that makes you selfish or anything

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Yes, that's a common fantasy, always has been. I feel the same exact opposite way about it though. My note says no funeral, no burial, no obituary. I hope as few people find out as possible. Better they should think I might be out there somewhere living my best life. Success is the best revenge for those lucky enough to achieve it.

 

[ireallywasnttogopls]

Idk can't relate, I'm quite the opposite

I'm happy I can leave this mess behind, never have to see anyone's face again, be at peace.

 

[brokenhands]

feel you, it's a common fantasy a lot if us share here, since subconsciously many people still desire sympathy and for their sufferings to be noticed (not speaking for everyone). but it really feels as the only way that our suffering would be taken seriously and not downplayed

 

[HopeIess]

im the opposite, i hope i will not have a funeral

 

[restingplace]

I get that completely. A big but kind of stupid factor in why I'm still alive is that I won't be able to see what people think and how people react. Not exactly because I want them to suffer but because I want to know what they truly thought of me