Discussion How big of a piece of shit would I be if I hung myself in my room and let my family find my body?

[VegasLyra]

I've thought about getting an hotel/airbnb but I'm broke and I'd feel very uncomfortable knowing that would be where I'd CTB. I just feel so much more comfortable in my home.

I love my family so much and I don't want to cause them any more pain, but I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. Do you think they could move past finding my body? Or would that traumatize them permanently?

 

[bluebonbon]

It would definitely traumatise them permanently. I had a friend who found her dad's hanging body and it destroyed her. She wasn't even that close to him. This is a dilemma that I've really struggled with too, but I've recently come up with the idea to just do it in a park in the middle of the night. One that you're very certain no one will wander into within an hour. I went to a park once in the middle of the night while I was having a breakdown, and it was very dead, no one around. It's an unconventional location, but I don't have a lot of options. Also, most convenient of all, there's even playground equipment sturdy enough to hang yourself from if that's the method you choose.

 

[VegasLyra]

It would definitely traumatise them permanently. I had a friend who found her dad's hanging body and it destroyed her. She wasn't even that close to him. This is a dilemma that I've really struggled with too, but I've recently come up with the idea to just do it in a park in the middle of the night. One that you're very certain no one will wander into within an hour. I went to a park once in the middle of the night while I was having a breakdown, and it was very dead, no one around. It's an unconventional location, but I don't have a lot of options. Also, most convenient of all, there's even playground equipment sturdy enough to hang yourself from if that's the method you choose.

Damn. Yeah between that anecdote and reading people's experiences on r/suicidebereavement, I see that hanging at home is a non-option. We'll see what option I do end up choosing cause I'm at a loss

 

[Insomniac Butterfly]

Something I've seen some people do was to write a note telling what they did and to call the authorities immediately, and then they'll put somewhere anyone can easily see it before seeing your remains. I think that's how I'm going to do it. Nothing could erase the impact of dealing with such a traumatic situation, but I want to believe it will lessen the trauma for whomever discovers me.

I wish it all were better *Hugs*

 

[Cepheuss]

It would definitely traumatise them. There are alternatives however you could wait for them to all not be home for a bit and set a scheduled message so that they arent the ones who find you

 

[GT Darkarage]

I'm in the same dilemma. I don't want to traumatise them... Even knowing I'm decided to..

 

[Ashu]

In a culture that still sees suicide as a sin, we cannot allow ourselves to be held hostage to the prejudice of the normtards, who can have no conception of our suffering. It's sad, but it's on society, not us.

 

[fitchnomore]

I really don't have a choice. Due to mobility limitations, I have been confined to the second floor of my house for well over a year. I plan to put a sign outside the door saying not to come in and to call the police. I plan to lock the door and slide some heavier objects against it to make it more difficult to open. A secondary reason for this is to help the police/corner rule out the possibility of homicide due to my chosen method.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I really don't have a choice. Due to mobility limitations, I have been confined to the second floor of my house for well over a year. I plan to put a sign outside the door saying not to come in and to call the police. I plan to lock the door and slide some heavier objects against it to make it more difficult to open. A secondary reason for this is to help the police/corner rule out the possibility of homicide due to my chosen method.

Welcome to SaSu.

Side note, I have also used items to block my door at times.

 

[rosynov2]

In a culture that still sees suicide as a sin, we cannot allow ourselves to be held hostage to the prejudice of the normtards, who can have no conception of our suffering. It's sad, but it's on society, not us.

Tbf if it wasn't called a sin majority of population would be gone lets be real

 

[telekon]

That depends. Do you hate your family? Dm if you ever want to talk.

 

[VegasLyra]

That depends. Do you hate your family? Dm if you ever want to talk.

No, I love them. They really have done everything they possibly can to get me help. I'm up for a convo, hit me up @universallyspeaking on discord if you want (the DMs on this site are so broken)

 

[EmptyBottle]

No, I love them. They really have done everything they possibly can to get me help. I'm up for a convo, hit me up [username removed] on discord if you want (the DMs on this site are so broken)

ummm, I don't think one should put their discord tag here

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

No, I love them. They really have done everything they possibly can to get me help. I'm up for a convo, hit me up @universallyspeaking on discord if you want (the DMs on this site are so broken)

i hope this isnt disrespectful but you are a hypocrite

I hate my parents, well kinda love-hate (love being in a responsibility kind of way, if they died i would not cry)

But even i can understand how a parent would feel if a child dies. I have no children but i did raise a pet

if they really treated you right as you said. Thats years of their life and wellbeing poured into you. Thats wellbeing, health, money, happiness.

Killing yourself is kiiling a part of them so when you say you love them and that they really did all that for you; and still want to kill yourself.

Then your claim is a lie. You do not love them

 

[VegasLyra]

ummm, I don't think one should put their discord tag here

Nah I don't mind. In fact if anyone wants to talk feel free to send me a friend request there

i hope this isnt disrespectful but you are a hypocrite

I hate my parents, well kinda love-hate (love being in a responsibility kind of way, if they died i would not cry)

But even i can understand how a parent would feel if a child dies. I have no children but i did raise a pet

if they really treated you right as you said. Thats years of their life and wellbeing poured into you. Thats wellbeing, health, money, happiness.

Killing yourself is kiiling a part of them so when you say you love them and that they really did all that for you; and still want to kill yourself.

Then your claim is a lie. You do not love them

"Joined today" I care enough to minimize the pain I'll cause them. But I don't owe them my existence. I'm not living for anyone else other than myself, and if I decide I don't want to exist anymore, that's my prerogative

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

Nah I don't mind. In fact if anyone wants to talk feel free to send me a friend request there

"Joined today" I care enough to minimize the pain I'll cause them. But I don't owe them my existence. I'm not living for anyone else other than myself, and if I decide I don't want to exist anymore, that's my prerogative

Suicide is about only killing yourself. Not harming others.

Maybe youll learn this one day if youre still alive... just know if your parents really treated you right, i think a lot of the ppl here including definitely me would have wanted to have parents like yours instead of our own

 

[lovelulu]

"Joined today" I care enough to minimize the pain I'll cause them. But I don't owe them my existence. I'm not living for anyone else other than myself, and if I decide I don't want to exist anymore, that's my prerogative

I really like how you worded that, if you get what I mean? I care and love about my family and I dont want to cause them pain but in the end its my choice and thats what I want to do. It's not like you asked to be here.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Nah I don't mind. In fact if anyone wants to talk feel free to send me a friend request there

my concern was that moderation could delete the post (tho hopefully they choose to preserve the post, even if they edit out the tag or smth)